I am right here and I am so glad you found the tape. I have read the book. I know pain. When my son was killed I just could not get my mind to work, I just cried and cried and then I would get up and do some silly thing and cry some more.
People told me time will heal the pain. Time has dulled the pain, but it is locked away and creeps out whenever I get really down.
I know people prayed for me and I prayed to God to please help me, why me, I am weak, did He not know I could not deal with this? I had visions of myself sitting in a rocking chair on the porch of a mental facility somewhere.
He certainly must have helped me through as I am still here yet I still run into pain..................as you, I sometimes feel all alone and cannot find the energy to get out and do something, do what? Where do you go alone?
I have learned to be patient and wait and it will be better again. My heart breaks for you when I read you posts. You touch my soul with your pain.
Please know I am here and I am praying...............for you my friend.
Moderator Anxiety ~ Panic Disorders
*~* Not a mental health professional at all *~*
Dx: Anxiety/Panic, Depression
_____________________________________________________"If you doubt you can accomplish something, then you can’t accomplish it. You have to have confidence in your ability, and then be tough enough to follow through.”