Dear Kyle's Mom,
Welcome to Healing Well. I am so sorry that you have so much to deal with. You are right, lots of people have big problems but I think yours is the one we need to work with today.
I can understand why you hate Cancer..........I hate it too for my own reasons. It takes a special Mother to care for these special children and you are that Mother. You need support both physical and emotional.
I agree that you must be physically exhausted by days end. You have to put yourself first here and take care of you. A healthy diet will give you energy and can you get in some short bouts of regular exercise.
I think you need your meds but perhaps they can be tweaked so if you can just make an appointment and go, the benefit may well be worth it.
How about respite care? I do not know what is offered in your city but you sure could use some. You and your husband. Even if there is a service that would give you some time for you. Do you have a social worker for the children that might be able to help you get resources. The American Cancer Society may have help for you.
I cannot say I understand just what your going through but I do support you and please take the time to keep posting.
Gentle Hugs and prayers for all of you including your sister.
Post Edited (Darkies Gem) : 7/22/2007 7:27:51 AM (GMT-6)
"I feel guilty when I am overwhelmed because I know there are others with much worse problems."
You know, whenever others have told me that there are others out there who are worse off, I have always wondered why that matters. You DO NOT need to feel guilty. What others are dealing with doesn't matter; only what you are confronting matters, and you're carrying a very heavy load. So feel free to cry, scream, sob, howl, bawl, whatever, without feeling guilty about it, because you have every right to. I do not envy you the position you are in at all. Sometimes I get so stressed out by my own problems I can't imagine having to take on care of my parents if they fall ill (I have no children), and I do worry about my father having a stroke or my mother getting Alzheimer's like her mother. I don't know that I'd have the strength to do what you've been doing, and I really admire you for that. Please, I know it's hard, but take a little time for yourself, or you won't have the emotional resources to help your family anyway in the long run. And definitely allow yourself to cry. Even someone who hadn't been suffering from depression would cry in this situation, so there's no reason for you not to.
I don't know what else to say; I know nothing I can say will take away the heartache, although I wish it could. So here's a hug from me to you and your kids, that's all I can do...
Just want to say thanks to all who posted. I go back and read what all of you said and it helps give me a boost. We did get good news last week, my daughter's cancer seems to be under control right now. We don't have to go back to her Dr. for 2 whole months!!!
I'm trying to do some good things for myself. Yesterday and today I did exercise... ok only 10-12 minutes but it's a start!?! Trying to eat better and also get more control of our finances, etc.
To Darkies Gem: All your recommendations about Kyle's diet were great. We're doing all of them now, in fact his Dr. had us start him on scandishakes when he was 18 months old. He gets at least one a day, and we also mix scandical powder into anything that he will tolerate. I think as he gets older his appetite will get better. Toddlers are really weird, eating nothing for a couple meals then having a large one later. He is doing well though, I take him in to be weighed tomorrow and I'm excited because I think he has gained since a month ago.
I am doing much better than the day I initially posted....that was a day that I was really down. Thanks to everyone on HealingWell, this is really a great forum.
Diana - (Kyle'sMom)