i just dont know what to do anymore like i think of how my life is rite now and i think "whats the point??" like i have nothing anymore it sucks.
it pretty much started when me and my bf of 2 years broke up because he met some girl on a cruise and he would talk to her on the phone in front of me and i was stupid and stayed wtih him but then i started going out with this one guy and my exbf got mad cuz we would still hang out so then one day my ex was over and got really mad about
me going out with the other guy so he started choking me and hitting me and i was trying to get away but it was hard and he just wouldnt stop and my neighbor called the cops and he got arrested for domestic violence.
well i still live with my parents (im 20) and they were out of town that weekend and then they came home and yelled at me for letting that happen and saying it was all my fault and talking about
what our neighbors are gonna think of me now, and wouldnt let me leave the house at all ( i was 19 but they still acted like i was like 5) so i just got really really really depressed mostly cuz i felt bad for getting my ex in trouble, i know my brain is screwed up. so liek a month later i started hanging out wtih him again but he changed for the worst this time. he started doing drugs and i was really upset and depressed at that time. Its just that i was stuck at my house for that whole month after the fight that i just thought bad about
myself. my exbf was still doing it and by then he got kicked out of his house and i got him a hotel for a week and then he lived at my house til i found out he was cheating on me so i kicked him out and he called me a couple ohours later so i met him at the mental hospital where he went into the inpatient part. i visited him everyday and then he went to rehab after that and i was there for him everyday too and he seemed liek he was gonna change. the day he got out tho, he was avoiding me and its cuz he met another girl in rehab who had 3 kids and started living with her and i was devastated because i thought things were gonna work out when he got out. so then i just became an alcoholic i got arrested on the 4th for underage drinking and running from the cops and then i got a dui. my parents were really mad but they still let me use my car that they paid for.
then last week i drank again and didnt wanna drive home drunk so i spent the nite out and i guess i talked to my mom at 11 that nite and said that i was coming home but i dont remember that. so i came home the next day and they were really mad and took my car and phone away and called me a piece of **** (they've been calling me that since i was liek 10 im not too upset bout that i got used to it and i dont have much respect for them anyways my dad always has **** magazines laying around wide
open like by the computer or in the bathroom and he like checks out my friends) but then yesterday my mom kept yelling. Then i woke up this morning, to my mom throwing a bag from my car in my room and yelling at me that i have to get up and she doesnt care bout anything bout me anymore and that im a piece of **** and just yelling and then she drove me to my sisters house and kept yelling too about
how im bad and that they're trying to make me good by making me not leave the hosue and i just started crying and she was like o youre stupid and she knows im on antidepressants and everything and then she just kept yelling about
my phone bill and stuff and just they like show nooooo support to me at all they call me crazy and say that im messed up in the head.
what should i do ?? im in too much debt rite now to move out unles i move with my sis i just dont know how to ask her https://www.healingwell.com/community/default.aspx?f=46&m=106997</A>) I have left as much detail in as I can so that your story still makes sense. <FONT color=red>
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