I have some questions that I know cannot be generalized since it's more of an individual affect.
However, can you tell me some of your experiences with going through depression episodes? Meaning; do you remember things that happen when you are going through an episode; remembering how it affects your thinking, numbs you from emotions..tricks you? Do you remember these things after the episode has ended? If experiencing another episode, after the last ones have ended, does it help you to recognize what you were feeling before..in order to fight the feelings from depression again?
I have read countless threads on different depression forums of people going through complete pain and frustration because their spouse/partner is going through an episode and the depression takes over their thinking. It completely kills off any form of positive thinking (of course), affects their eating habits, communication becomes less than minimal and affection is but a memory and almost all forms of social interaction cease..just to name a few. But what I hear over and over, AND over..is that it also convinces this person they are no longer in love with their spouse. So many of these situations have ended in seperation or divorce. One thing I have noticed, is this happens with couples that have their partner have their first experience with depression and lack full treatment of meds and talk therapy.
If you are taking your meds, going to your therapy sessions on a regular basis and doing what you can do to rid the depression, wouldn't one become better equipped mentally to handle another episode so as to be smarter than the depression by recognizing the habits from previous episodes? The meds and therapy are to help stabalize a person right? To balance out the seratonin levels and the therapy helps to keep one rational, to help with perspective? Is it possible to have a normal relaitonship if you are doing everything to treat the depression?
I know this is a lot in terms of questions, but to all of you that have experienced this first hand, it is very much appreciated to share with me.