colorectal carcinoma and hospice

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   Posted 8/19/2007 7:20 PM (GMT -6)   
  Hey folks, It's been a long time since I wrote anything at this sight. After two years of trying to keep my wife alive( she suffered from cancer) I lost my baby on 5-28-07. I am presently going through the grieving and guilt process. It was such a long road for my sweetheart, often even now I think that I don't want to live without her. My book which I have written while my wife was sick( The Isolation Room) by myself, William C Morgan, is online at any major bookstores. This book is dedicated to my late wife Tracy Lynne. I was able to write this book as Tracy was sleeping most of the time and this book is actual real feelings that I felt during Tracy's long illness. This was the only way that I could keep my sanity. All proceeds from my book are going to the United Cancer Society. My sweetheart wanted to live so badly and I am in a dreadful state of depression over her loss. I have eighty-six pages of my second book bringing every care- giver up to date on what to expect. I wrote those eighty-six pages while Tracy was still with me, I stopped writing about six months ago. I am humbled by each and every one of you people who are suffering from this horrible disease. Tracy was only forty-seven years old when she passed, and I can't wait to join her in heaven.
                               I humbly respect all of you,
                               ( Hobnob), William C Morgan

Post Edited (hobnob) : 8/20/2007 3:38:01 PM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 8/19/2007 10:32 PM (GMT -6)   
I'm really sorry to hear about the loss of your wife.  What you are doing with the proceeds of your book is a great thing.  Did she have Hospice?
If you would go back and give this thread a title, it will get read more.  A lot of times when there is not a subject, people just pass it over.  This is too important to be passed over.
Take care!

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   Posted 8/20/2007 4:18 PM (GMT -6)   
Carla has made a good point about re-naming the thread. Simply edit your first post and it will give you a chance to edit it. I too am sorry to hear of your loss and hope that you can begin to rebuild your life now that the grieving process has begun. Im sure your wife would have been very proud of what you are doing.

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   Posted 8/24/2007 2:31 PM (GMT -6)   
I just want to add how much I understand what you are going through. We lost my mother in law at 54, after 6 years of battling end stage breast cancer. That we had six years was a huge blessing, some people get weeks after such a diagnosis. But after we lost her, the whole family was very lost. Even two years later, we have moments, but they are getting better. Even her husband, my father-in-law, is starting to live again, which is a huge relief to us. The pain never completely goes away, but you do learn to live again. The books sound very interesting, and brave. It's hard to put those feelings on paper. I salute you. If you have an extended family, lean on them. If you have access to a support group, I'd suggest trying it. Just keep thinking that your wife would not have wanted you to give up the rest of your life. And not giving up, doesn't mean finding someone new, it's just finding away to live without her there everyday. And I know with my father-in-law the hardest part was not having someone to look after anymore after she passed. (The aging dog took her place!) But it's been two years and he's doing much better. So I hope that gives you some hope. My thoughts and prayers are with you. Grief is probably one of the more difficult emotions to deal with... The one major solace and strength my father-in-law had was in the religion they shared. You just need to find that strength and solace, but it won't happen overnight and it won't be easy. Good luck.

 It would be easier to tell people I have cancer than it is to tell them I am severely depressed.....

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   Posted 8/24/2007 5:48 PM (GMT -6)   


I am sinceley sorry at the death of your "sweetheart", your wife. I am sure you both cared for each other deeply and the tribute to her is one of the greatest things I have heard in a long time.

Life is eternal, and love immortal, and death is only a horizon; and a horizon is nothing save the limit of our sight. ~Rossiter Worthington Raymond~

I just ordered your book through Amazon. :)   Gentle Hugs.


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Post Edited (stkitt) : 8/24/2007 4:49:27 PM (GMT-6)

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   Posted 8/24/2007 6:14 PM (GMT -6)   
William, You are among a great group of people.  You can drop in anytime and it's always the perfect time.  You don't have to talk or let anyone even know that you are here and you can just listen.  On the other hand, it's always your time to talk and no one will interrupt.  You can talk fast or slow and it will always come out just the way that you want it.  Bring us a smile or a tear, grab a hand or give a hug, or stand back and shake your head.  You're always welcome.  GTM 
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