It is has been awhile since I have been able to post on this forum. I have been extremely ill and just was released from the hospital yesterday. My depression has overtaken every aspect of my life lately and has left me with almost every part of me destroyed. It has taken everything I am to even turn on my computer and move my fingers to type.
As I read the forum, I realized that life went on without me as I thought. What a sad feeling it is too see that as much as you would like to believe that people will miss you, your presence is only really important to one person ultimately, ME. I know that there are people that have been worried about me and I want them to know that I appreciate the fact that I was missed and when I saw that I received emails, it softened my heart to know that i was missed.
I guess the biggest thing I learned was that when s..t hits the fan, me and only me can ask for help.
I want to thank my Angel for being there for me!
This depression has been the hardest thing I have ever experienced in my life. It has taken everything that means anything to me, it has hurt the people I love and it has hardened my heart to anyone who tries to take anything else from me. There are things in my life I refuse to give up and I will never EVER at any cost give the few things in my life I have left to depression.
I am doing ok and will try to get better every day.