Am new here but I hv been to the chatroom n found much support. Been battling abt posting cos am not used to opening up, maybe cos in the real world most of what I feel has been either dismissed or unvalidated. Since then I hv turned inward n silent. But things hv been overwhelming over time n I find myself backed into a corner.
I hv been crying over the smallest things n everything seems to magnify by the hundredfold. My head's all over the place n focussing on one thing seems hard. I am on psy meds yet I feel overwhelmed. Everything seem to pour in like a broken dam n old skeletons hv emerged. I dont know which way to turn n am losing control over everything including my health. It's gotten me to believe that I hv become not only a lesser a person physically but emotionally as well. It's become obvious to the ones around me that I am not the person I used to be - a strong person n a pillar.They hv expressed it to me that they cant accept me being 'weaker' compared to who I used to be n that hurts. It leaves me to think that I am not 'allowed' to fall apart n that I am only human going thru life as they are. I hv given up trying to make them understand what I am going thru cos they would either dismiss it or tell me to 'get over it' or 'stop feeling sorry for myself'. I am not here to get any sympathy from anyone, I just want to be heard. I feel so alone n my world is caving in on me.
Thanks for letting me vent n ramble on.