You know what hell I am going through on my post. He also talked about the many many x-girlfriends, and I could never really figure out why, because I was in the la la stage of falling in love with him. I saw some of the immature ways, and thought, I can live with that, this guy is so loving and giving, and never ever argues. (he still doesnt argue, he always ends up saying he is sorry in the end) He was the exact opposite of my abusive x-husband. I had money, he didnt, I didnt care because he was what every woman dreamed about having. (except for the money) Always considerate, good values, strong in his views, but open minded to mine, and did I mention he is movie star drop dead good looking in a younger 6'4" George Clooney kinda way? He was strong and gentle too. Yet, there were things that bothered me a bit, like why is he just 3 years younger than me and he doesnt have anything to show for it? Why is he driving a 20 year old sports car that he was in love with?.....but ya know, those things were like distant bells in the back of my mind, and that is where I kept them, never to be analized. Had I known, or had enough balls so to speak to look at the things that were way back in the back of my mind, I would have not gotten so serious, I would have ran the other way. (well ...after a few dates anyway he is the best looking man I have ever seen in person! haha),,,,,and now here I am in hell. You sweets, on the other hand, have the distant bells clanging in your head so loud, you cant hear or see what you need to see. You have a chance, the best chance that can be given to any woman before she marries, you can see a glimmer of your future....your true future before you get married. All of those tears are a blessing, not a curse. Going back on your meds, is a sign from above, not a curse. You are truely blessed. Be happy those bells are there so loud right now. You can keep going and fight the bells, or go the path you were meant to be on. It is up to you.
I personally believe that we all have a destiny, and every single time I have fought to have my way, things turned out really bad, and when I just let me life flow the way it was suppose to, things were easy, good things fall in your lap without a struggle. How you choose to live your life is up to you. Either way, we are all here to care about you, worry about you, and be happy for you with what ever choice you make, or road you take in life. Keep us posted, we are all human, we all understand , we have all been there.........