Do you think High School is literally like an educational Prison?
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   Posted 9/1/2007 11:05 AM (GMT -6)   
I'm 13 years old and at High School and have ben diagnosed with Chronic Depression
every day I feel on the verge of a panic attack. I have had a relatively lonely life where I discover that my "best friends" didn't actually like me because I got depressed too often, then again I did put them down a bit so I can't really blame them that much

Then I moved and found GREAT friends I had a GREAT time, but that was only for five months and then we moved on to High School and everything, and everyone is changing, but I am staying the same here. My best friend in the world has completely died and become someone I don't know a BIT, shes VIOLENT, shes hard to talk to and talks in strong Scottish dialect >.<

I also have such bad romantic life, Everybody finds it strange that I have never kissed a boy, i see couples on the streets and think "Whats wrong with ME!?" But its like boys in my school,
They want clones the ones who put on 10 pounds of make-up and i don't believe in Make-up or straightening my hair so I am regularly ridiculed for this, My hair is scruffy and short, therefore I a boy going out with ME would be like a Boy going out with an animal?

Oh god I feel really bad in High School
Thanks for listening, Susan
Hey BronzeWatch, I am sorry but I have edited part of your post due to forum rule and regulation #1 No discussion of any illegal activity or threats of violence. (ie. illicit drug use, including medical marijuana use, threats of suicide or self-injury, or threatened or intended physical harm).  Discussions of suicide or self-harm that are deemed negative and therefore potentially injurious to others are also not permitted. 

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   Posted 9/1/2007 11:41 AM (GMT -6)   
I wasnt able to vote on the poll because there I dont feel as of high school is like an educational prison.  I am sure there are reasons at your age that you feel that way and I am sure that they are legitimate to your situation.
Having been 13 at one time I remember going through similiar things as you describe.  I remember my high school era as a time in my life that had very few good memories.  Was it hell?  Yes, most of the time but what you have to remember is that it is something we have to do for 12 years of our lives whether or not we like it.
Having to attend school with depression is twice as bad as it is attending without it.  The pressures seem more intense and you tend to be more withdrawn.  How I made it through was I attended vocational school in the last years of school.  This pulled me away from the mainstream of "my" school and allowed me to not only learn a trade but meet new people.
I know it is hard but trust me when I say that it is a necessity of life and do your best to find support with whatever it is that is troubling you. 
SCHOOL is NOT a reason for suicidal ideations!!!  If you are truly feeling that much despair please seek help.  Suicide is extremely serious and needs to be addressed.
School is a temporary thing.......suicide is forever.
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   Posted 9/1/2007 2:21 PM (GMT -6)   
Yeah sorry about the pole btw
I pressed enter instead of the "go-down-a-line" button, it sounds silly but ya know It happens I guess.


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   Posted 9/1/2007 2:23 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks for the advice, Teresa, I guess I know its what I HAVE to grow through, I'm depressed and annoyed for several other reasons but I hate moaning so its like a thing.


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   Posted 9/1/2007 2:32 PM (GMT -6)   

Hi Susan, I am leaving you some links below just incase you ever feel that you may need them.  I really hope that you dont but please use them if you feel that you do.  They are extremely helpful and it would give you someone to talk to one on one. 

As for your school issue I cant be of much help there.  It has been quite a while since I was in school.  I do know that kids can be very harsh, which is very sad.  Hang in there dear






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   Posted 9/3/2007 12:35 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Susan,
I am 22 and had a pretty miserable time at Senior School (Not sure what you call it in the US) so I know that children can be cruel and unforgiving in thier jibes. Dont let the bullies beat you. I know its hard, but you need to find some strength within you to stand up to them and make them stop. The teachers at your school should be able to help you. I didnt see your post before it was edited so I cannot comment on that but I think I get the gist of what was taken out. Teresa is right in saying "School is temporary thing... Suicide is forever." Take a look at some of the Websites Shy has given you and you might be able to take some comfort and advice from them.
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   Posted 9/4/2007 1:51 PM (GMT -6)   
Oh Bronzewatch, reading your post makes me feel like I'm reading an old journal entry of mine or something. I definitely know how you feel.

I HATED High School. More than anything ever. I was so disappointed because everyone said it was supposed to be the best years of your life, and everyone else seemed like they were having a great time except me. I have pretty bad social anxiety and an embarrassing digestive disease which also contributed to the fear and pain of it all. Kids that age can be cruel and rude and thoughtless. I think it's especially hard being a girl because let's face it, girls can just be downright mean! I've never cried so much in my life than I did in high school. I developed serious depression and had a lot of harmful thoughts and actions that I now regret because it seemed to isolate me further and make things worse. But you know what? It isn't forever. I made it out okay and you will too. And I never see any of the people I knew from high school anymore and when I do, we just exchange hellos and that's it. Everyone who hated me or made fun of me is completely insignificant now, and most of the time, they even let it go and be nice after! It's weird.

As for the not having a boyfriend thing- you're still young! And you're NOT weird! It's strange to me that people are already kissing and having sex at 13 or younger, most girls haven't even gotten their periods yet by then!!! I didn't have a "boyfriend" till I was about 15 and even then I didn't consider it a real relationship or anything and didn't even hug them, haha. And every high school relationship I had ended in hurt feelings anyway. It's really not that great! I mean it can be fun and all but don't worry yourself so much over it, high school boys are jerks. You will find someone who likes you for you and treats you how you deserve.

The most important thing is to hang in there and finish high school! It really is important; not so much the learning thing because honestly, I don't remember anything educational from high school!! But getting that silly piece of paper can make all the difference in the world unfortunately.

Just hold your head high and keep telling yourself "These people do not matter and it will be over soon enough." That helped me through tough times sometimes. You will have some low points and some high points in school and it will be hard. The drama is really annoying and if you can distance yourself from it at all times that is best, but sometimes it's unavoidable. People will say hurtful things but it does not mean anything, just because they say something does not mean that is who you are! Don't let them get to you because it will always get better, if you give it the chance to. I am so glad I never acted on my darkest thoughts because there is so much to life after high school, high school is just a silly step that we have to take for building social skills or something (fat lot of good that did me!).
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   Posted 9/5/2007 9:48 AM (GMT -6)   
I believe that life is evolutionary as in that it is suppose to get better and better. If high school is the best years of your life then it is pretty sad life. Life does get easier, but you have to learn and grow as you go and accept that nothing is forever. Enjoy the good times, learn and grow from all times, especially the bad times.
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