I am doing ok and getting better every day! It means so much to me to see that there are truly people that care so much about me even though we have never met in person. I have been in touch with a couple of the members lately and have told them what has been going on.
Long story short, even after this terrible experience there was some positive things that came out of it. I finally have not 1 doc that truly cares about me, I HAVE 3!!!!!! 3 Psych docs that are all three wonderful and truly care about my recovery. For the first time in my life, I actually have a choice of wonderful docs to pick from, you cannot even imagine how wonderful that feels.
I still have my VNS implant turned on and I have agreed to taking several different anti-ds which I didnt want to do but until i feel better the docs said to stay on them. Believe me I had taking all these drugs but I do feel better. I am in therapy 3 times a week and I have gained 10 pounds which everyone tells me i needed.
Another blessing of this disaster is that I developed friendships with 2 people that have depression as well. They are wonderful people with great support systems as well.
Personally for me, I am struggling and at this point I am better if I dont put a great deal of thought into it right now because of the boundaries of grieving I am experiencing.
Keep sending me your prayers and thoughts because they are working for me!
Thank you friends!