Hi Dark, I am very glad to see that your still posting. Here in the US many people are still very ignorant regarding depression and the causes of it. Regardless of the advances of science in this area of study. I can only imagine how much worse it is in your country of South Africa.
The facts are that depression is a chemical imbalance of seratonin in the brain. Also, depression can be brought on be external factors early on in a persons life such as abuse, poverty, neglect and low self esteem. There are also genetic factors to consider when looking at depression too as family history can play a big part into this. Someone may have grown up happy and healthy but if a parent or grandparent had depression or antother type of mental illness then they could be genetically predisposed to having a mental disorder on down the line.
I guess if you havent already figured out by now I am full of information on this stuff. I worked in mental health and also I have depression & post traumatic stress disorder due to an abusive childhood. I also have anxiety/panic disorder which developed when I became physicially ill with Multiple Sclerosis 6 years ago and have some OCD which I contribute to my jerk of an ex-husband who had this really bad and never would admit it. I think some habit rub off on people ya know? Anyhow, I am going to post to you more links on depression so you can know your not alone and become informed about it.
Please know you are not weak...us who suffer with this terrible disease and yes it is indeed a disease and medical illness are the strongest of them all. Who else could struggle with the demons in our heads day after day and continue to go on?
After 11 years of torture by my stepfather as a child my mother tried to make me see a psychiatrist she knew I was depressed and needed help but I always refused. Even on those rare occasions when she did manage to get me there I wouldnt talk. Guess I just wasnt ready or thought I could handle it. How wrong I was. I was was 25 before I got help on my own and it came down the very last wire...I wouldnt of made it another hour if I didnt get into the doctor. My thoughts and mind were taking over everything that I was and knew. I was put on an antidepressant and antianxiety which helped pretty quick thank God. But over the next 6 years I played with starting and stopping my meds as at times I felt I could go without and be okay. Each time I would good for a few months and then slid down that slippery slope again and be right back where I started. With Major Depression which is my diagnosis I know I will have to always be on an antidepressant to function and feel well. I see a psychiatrist now and have for the last 2 years and yeah, I let my mom push this last time on that one as I was sick again and in the hospital with heart & blood pressure problems and didnt have the energy to fight her. But it was the best decision ever.
So many people are going to push for the doctor and seeking help with medications...but if you really think about it the way you have been doing thinks on your own hasnt been helping right? If you dont have mental health and clarity then most other areas of your life are screwed up also. That is why it is so important to get checked out by a professional not worry what others think...you are doing it for you that is what is important. Keep posting we are always here...