A little background. I am an 82 year old white male with numerous physical impairments. I have COPD numerous heart problems 5 way by pass and a number of myocardial infarctions, diabetes, colosstomy are just a few. I have had a good life and still enjoy a lot of things, but unfortunately many of my favorite things are long beyoind my ability now. I tried to pay a round of golf just a few weeks ago but could not finish the 9 holes and I will never talk about
the score. I used to be a good golfer. I can't ski and was a good skier, I have fly fished for over 65 years, but can't stand u in the water any longer. I build bamboo fly rods, but I am so greatly slowed down that even this is a faculty I am losing. In the last couple of weeks I have been unbearably fatigues. in fact I slpt about
40 hours in a two day period. My wife is convinced I am depressed, and after reading Merlot Moons post, I can see myself in her descript
ion of her husband's behavior. BUT I don't feel like I am depressed. I am upset that I have slowed down so much and that I can no longer do the physical things I used to do. I did suffer a clinical depression after the death of my first wife, and I had some rofessional help, but this does not seem to be like theat episode. If I am burdensome and unthinking toward my wife, I have to learn to recognize and avoid theat behavior. She is the greatest thing that has happened to me. I just don't know what is going on. Can any of you help?
maybe a cousin of Merlot Moon (Rmoon) arundinaria