I never thought I was depressed. It never crossed my mind. I knew I had anxiety/panic disorder, but ALL my docs said it was from the fibro. I assumed that all the pain I had was from the fibro, blamed fibro for not sewing anymore, or gardening, or doing any type of project I was used to doing. Blamed fibro for the sudden cutting off of all my "friends", I don't talk on the phone to anyone, have no desire to "make friends", mostly just chat with people I run into at ballgames or stores that I know.
I was cranky, but of course I was in pain. So I figured the crankiness, moodiness, seclusion type issues came from that. I went into my docs office for a major panic attack that kept going, and going and going, and of course I had ran out of my Klonopin and thought it was "no big deal" at the time. Doc took one look at me, said she was going to "fix this mess". Put me on Celexa, Klonopin twice a day instead of once at night, and Flexeril for sleep. Third day of the Celexa I noticed a difference... reduced pain, more alertness, better sleep.
I've been doing small projects here and there, getting my house and home office area organized, my memory is greatly improved. I even started chiropractic therapy and found that I have so many vertebrate misaligned that it's ridiculous. Also found out that the dx my old doc gave me of "degenerative disk disease" was bull droppings. There is no degeneration showing on any xrays. This is an older chiro and he suddenly turned around and grabbed my upper arm, my leg, and then my forearm... asked if any of that hurt, when I said no he said I did NOT have fibromyalgia. He feels that I have had nerve impingement for a long, long time. Causing just about every single thing wrong with me. Not only are the vertebrate "out of alignment" but many are twisted sideways, compressing nerves.
I've had two adjustments so far, and muscle stimulation treatment... betweent that and the Celexa I'm coming close to feeling my old self.
How is it possible that someone can be so depressed and never notice it? And people not notice it around them? It really, really bugs me that if I had come across this particular doc ( a PA at the clinic I go to) a couple years ago... I would have not been miserable this long.