As other people have said, AD's and alcohol dont generally mix and they can cause a problem when weaning off either. Can I ask who's idea it was to come off the Xanax? Perhaps it would help going back on it? Also, have you considered calling a crisis helpline for someone to talk to and to get advice? I have included the 2 numbers (one for the US and one for the UK at the bottom of this post). Please know that we will help in anyway we can and we will give you all the support you need.
Helpline US: 1800-SUICIDE (784.2433)
Helpline UK: 08457 90 90 90
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