This is my vice. I once weighed 330lbs. I got down to 180 through diet and exercise but everyone said I looked ill so I purposfully put on weight. The problem is that two years later Im at 220 and I feel like my eating is out of control again. If it wasnt for my daily workout and physically demanding job, Id be 300+ for sure. Im sure the prdnicone isnt helping, but its not just that, its my life, my lonliness, my guilt, my shame....my depression. Im so lost and getting farther away all the time. Farhter from myself that is. I am an extremist so today I got rid of my tv(again) because I theorize that I eat more in front of it so if I get rid of it everything will be ok. Well, here I am snacking while typing. I was able to keep it under 2000 calories before, I need to get there again. Lately Ive been at 4000+ calories daily. Sometimes 7000+. Crazy huh? I just need help, not of the O.E. persuasion, but of the getting to my root problems persuasion. Do you guys journal or meditate...I know that would help me but it my world of distractions, I just never do it.
I was diagnosed with U.C. in early 2007. I am 30, single and no kids.
I am currently taking 4800 mgs of Lialda, 100 mgs of Imuran, 1000 mgs Canasa, 10 mgs of Prednisone temporarily(1 more week).
Also I take:Propecia(hair loss), Trentenoin(acne), Paxil(depression), Allegra(allergies), Advair&albuterol(asthma), multi-vitamins, b-complex, flax oil and biotin.
I eat a vegan diet.