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Date Joined Oct 2007
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   Posted 10/11/2007 7:32 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi.  I have been depressed my whole life, atleast 30 years.  I have never felt as bad as I do now though.  I have tried every medication out there and am afraid either my Dr. will give up or that there just isnt any hope.  I have delt with the depression in the past, by being able to work atleast.  The problem now is that I just dont care.  I am not happy or sad just blah.  I am currently unemployed, first time ever and I dont care.  I want to care, I want to have some feeling.  It seems like my thought process is all messed up.  I cant even think about getting work or finding work.  I am just so frusterated.  I am tired of hearing that there will be an end to this eventually.  I dont even know why I am posting this, I know there is nothing that can make me feel better.

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Date Joined Jul 2007
Total Posts : 33
   Posted 10/11/2007 8:06 PM (GMT -6)   
I just had a major breakdown. I am new to the depression. I suffer from anxiet/panic attacks. Now that I have that under control, the depression kicks in. I have never in my life suffered from depression. I just know that it is turning my world upside down. I have crying spells and don't know why I'm crying. I think about dying alot. Just a weird overall felling. The reason that I am posting to you was because of the comment you made about there is nothing that can make you fell better. Well like I said I just had a major breakdown crying and all. I dropped to my kness and prayed to god to tke it away. I prayed for him to take the horrible feeling away. I am a Jesus Christ believer. Hope you are the same. But i'm tired of turning to meds. from now on I'm turning to him. I poured my heart out to jesus. And I know he will heal me. Just think about that, cause from what you said nothing is helping you.


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Date Joined Dec 2005
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   Posted 10/12/2007 7:04 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Pam
First of all I want to welcome you to the forum,I am very glad that you found us and I am sure you will find the support that you are looking for.

Depression hits us hard,and we don't see a way out. No light at the end of the tunnel..and why should we bother right?

Well, for one.. do you want to continue feeling like this for the rest of your life? Do you want to forget about your dreams,and your family?
Those are questions that you have to ask this all of the life that you want?
Probably not.
It is a fight to get over depression,but it is a fight that is worth it. You can't give up. And your doctor will not give up on you.
I had to take several different types of meds before I found the one that worked for me. Alot of people have to do that. It is very frustrating and we want to just feel better simple as that.
Are you going to counseling? I benefited so much from facing what triggered my depression in the first place. Believe me though,it was no picnic. And I was scared to death the first time. But she knew what questions to ask,and she made me feel very comfortable.
Whatever you do,do not give up. Use this board to vent. We are here and we all understand.

Mod- Depression

Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia
Meds I have taken throughout the years:Wellbutrin,Tranxene,Paxil,Prozac,Valium,

Have been med free for 2 years now.

How can you talk without a brain?

I dunno...but alot of people talk without a brain don't they?

Dorthy and the Scarecrow-Wizard of Oz

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Date Joined Jan 2006
Total Posts : 2408
   Posted 10/12/2007 11:29 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi Pam and Welcome to HealingWell!

You have been given some good advice so far. I too want you to know that you can use these boards as mch as you feel you need to and we will support you in any way we can. I noticed that you have mentioned the use of medications but there is no mention of talking therapy... have you considered Cognitive behavioural Therapy (CBT) or Rational Emotive behavioural Therapy (REBT)? Also, exercise and sunshine help your body process Vitamin D which in turn can help the symptoms of Depression.

I hope you find that this is helpful


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