Post Edited (ShynSassy) : 10/13/2007 6:43:23 AM (GMT-6)
Its so difficult because although you know you are doing the best thing for him, he just cant see it. I think an independent person is the key here. He may listen to someone who isnt biased. In terms of going to college, I understand that you want to do your best for him but if he doesnt want to go then I dont see that there is a lot you can do. Perhaps if he was to get beack on the meds and make a decision it would be better because he would be thinking with a clear head. As for him kicking off tonight, just stand back. Please do not risk yourself as I think you are likely to come off worse and then he will still carry on. I know its hard but I am thinking of you!!
As a mother of a bipolar son, you have spent great periods of time on pins and needles waiting for the next event — an event that can be triggered by the depressed state of the disorder or by the manic. You’re left wondering how your sweet innocent two-year old grew up to be such a challenging individual, one that you may actually fear at times. You wonder what went wrong and when; you wonder what you may have done to contribute. You wonder why they were chosen to bear the bipolar burden.
I want to reinforce with you that you are doing the very best you can, you are a wonderful advocate and yes a 6'5" boy is a full grown man. How do you get him to take meds? That is a huge issue with the people with this illness. I hope that your son will get the help he needs and will become compliant with his meds.
My prayers are with you Shy, you are a wonderful person and I would love to see you have some peace in your life.
Thinking of you
Carla is right Shy... Take a few days away from HW and everything and recharge your batteries. I can handle Depression by myself for a few days. Kitt, Olivia and Elisha are usually around anyway if things went pear-shaped. Have some you-time... it sounds like you need it.