What meds should I take

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Date Joined Sep 2007
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   Posted 10/24/2007 8:50 AM (GMT -6)   
I have a high amount of anxiety and depression. I feel guilty and worthless and hoeless at times. Im rarely happy, usually just ok enough to get by. I feel that I have to force a smile to get by and so others wont think Im weird or angry. I get asked all the time "whats wrong"; or "you look angry about something". My mood swings like crazy. Caffeine can make me feel alive at times, other times the feeling of guilt and being a bad person is excentuated. HOWEVER, I dont cry myself to sleep, I rarely cry; I am functional, I go to work and workout everyday; I am not so depressed that I cant get out of bed to face the day, I usually get up and going with no problems. I lead a very isolative life. I dont have any friends. The only people in my life are co-workers and my mom. All I want to do outside of work is overeat and sleep and watch movies. Im dating a lot because of an online dating service, but I lose interest quickly in my date. Ive been to counslers and psychiatrists for years; different ones for varying lengths. Ive been on xanax, which I liked but stopped so I wouldnt become addicted. I was on adderall which helped me focus and I felt sharp-minded but, at times, it would excentuate my negative feelings. Im on paxil which helps with the anxiety and depression, but Im numb on it; no highs or lows. I went off it once and I was an irritable mess. Im on 20 mgs and Ive considered going to 40. Ive thought about taking mood stabilizers or something. Im going to see a new psychiatrist soon; I switch a lot because of insurance and because Ive moved. I know I need long-term counseling or at least start journaling and meditating. I dont do the counseling because of money, I dont do the journaling because...I dont know why, I just always avoid it. Ive done stuff in the past Im ashamed of but Im generally a good person, I just keep beating myself up. I was raised in a very dysfunctional mentally/physically abusive environment. I turned to drugs in my teens and early 20's. Ive been mentally screwed up since my teens. I was the fat boy without any interest from girls and picked on by the boys throughout my adolescence. That played a part in why I am SO self-conscious. Basically, I just want to be happy. I hate waking up with this feeling where I think I am a bad person. It feels overwhelming, like I can never experience happiness because I know that deep down I am bad. The thing is I dont think I really am. I think I am good, but this feeling persists. PLEASE offer any insights. Thanks for your time.
 I was diagnosed with U.C. in early 2007. I am 30, single and no kids.
I am currently taking 4800 mgs of Lialda, 100 mgs of Imuran, 1000 mgs Canasa
Also I take:Propecia(hair loss), Trentenoin(acne), Paxil20mgs(depression), Allegra(allergies), Advair500/50&albuterol(asthma), multi-vitamins, b-complex, flax oil and biotin.
I (over)eat a vegan diet.

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   Posted 10/25/2007 7:24 AM (GMT -6)   

I have been on so many different meds. But,all we can do here is tell you what we experienced on the meds. Since everyone is different you will probably have different symptons or other meds will work for you but not someone else.

Paxil and wellbutrin worked for me. There are so many new meds out right now. I would make an appt right away and take their advice. If something does not work then you can always switch to something else.

Please keep us posted.

Mod- Depression

Chronic Depression, Panic Attacks,Anxiety Attacks,Anorexia
Meds I have taken throughout the years:Wellbutrin,Tranxene,Paxil,Prozac,Valium,

Have been med free for 2 years now.


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