I wanted to thank tou all for your support and very heart felt wishes. I was at Dr. yesterday after crying all day, even at work...rough day. Mostly because I dont know what is wrong with me. My Dr reassured me and made me feel better, I did recently have 2 acute illnesses, Mono and Pneumonia, and that seems to have exacerbated any issues that I was having. Anyway, feeling much better today. He said it is OK to continue on the Klonopin for now, even though I have signifigant guilt over taking a benzo, but I guess I need to pick my poison, I hate the idea of addiction and have read some very scary stuff on-line (not good for someone who already has anxiety issues, so I have anxiety about my anxiety and the anxiety meds...HA!) I am limiting my computer time :)
So long story short, he gave a Rx for Doxepin (Sinequan) old TCA, since I cant tolerate SSRI, and it is supposed to make you Sleeeep...I had the pharmacy order a 10mg/ml liquid that can be dosed down to 1mg if need be. So I hope to possibly phase out Klonopin and just use this for sleep, we will see, I just need to be patient, which is something I am not good at. Also am going to start running, min 5 days a week, 40 min to 1 hour, wish me luck.
My blessings to you all, no one should have to go through what we have been through.