Just need to vent about how I feel!

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Date Joined Nov 2007
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   Posted 11/7/2007 8:17 PM (GMT -6)   


• 40 years old
• Female
• Married at age 27
• 2 kids (19-adopted and 10-natural at age 30)
• Work Full Time since 19 no break time except vacations
• 13-Family issues resulting in physical and mental abuse
• Did well in school and played sports to disassociate
• 18-Car wreck resulting in broken pelvic bone, contusions, torn bladder, severe head trauma, learned how to walk again through PT
• Discharged from hospital after 3 weeks, very depressed, frequent headaches, self medicated with alcohol and ….. for next 7 years
• 25-Diagnosed officially with depression, Prozac
• 26-34- tried different AD’s (Effexor XR, Wellbutrin, Lexapro…)
• 35-Diagnosed with Polycystic ovaries prescribed Glucophage XR, Spirolactone, and Cymbalta

Now I am forty, I am worst than ever. At times I feel so overwhelmed and migraines have started. I work a full-time (40 hours), Monday-Friday. On the weekends, I lie in bed and watch TV.

I have a tenacious 10-year old daughter who needs her mom. I was always there for my older daughter doing things. I feel bad about how I have not given the same amount time to my baby.

I feel sad like I want to cry all the time. I have absolutely no interest in doing anything, even grocery shopping. I want to sleep but can’t, just lay there and think about what I should be doing. I have fatigue, anxiety and no energy. I feel so guilty for my husband and children. Lately at work I have a hard time concentrating, remembering things, or even dealing with situations.

I want the second half of my life to be a lot better!

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Date Joined Jul 2005
Total Posts : 247
   Posted 11/8/2007 12:52 AM (GMT -6)   
Hi Gormo!
I hope the second half of your life is better. You went through alot the first half. The best for you. Dee

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Date Joined Jan 2006
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   Posted 11/8/2007 5:18 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi there and Welcome to HealingWell,

Im sorry you have had such an eventful 40 years. That is a lot for someone to go through in one lifetime let alone before they are 40. Were you queried for PTSD (Post Traumatic Stress Disorder [Syndrome] )? The car accident when you were 18 could have caused this and this could be the reason for the depression. (Im not a doctor, but that is my initial thought). You say you played sport at school to dissociate... how about taking up a sport now? Exercise get the blood pumping and releases endorphines. Also, getting out in the sunshine allows your body to better process Vitamin D which can also help alleviate depression. Failing that, I dont think that talking to  a psychologist would do you any harm.

Keep us posted


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Date Joined Nov 2007
Total Posts : 20
   Posted 11/8/2007 12:40 PM (GMT -6)   
Hi Gormo,

I won't go into my own personal story, but I can completely relate to your internal nightmare. All I want to mention is for you to google "Bowen Therapy". I do not know if you have tried this, but it is the only thing that saved me.

Best regards, Nicole.

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Date Joined Nov 2007
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   Posted 11/10/2007 9:15 PM (GMT -6)   
Thanks for all of your thoughtfulness and support! Sometimes is is just nice to get things out of your system!
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