I'm so glad you reached out for help. Please keep checking in with us. I feel like you and I have become friends between here and the asthma/allergy forum. I surely don't want anything to happen to you. I know you have suffered a great loss and dealing with it is hard. I don't deal with losses well myself either. Please stay in touch with your therapist.
You can email me any time by clicking on my name.
Love and prayers to you,