I messed up last night - I've been struggling w/ a number of things & alcohol is one of them. I hid all my wine outside in our storgage shed a while back to keep me from it - well, it didn't keep me from it last night. I went out there and dug out the box and ended up drinking almost an entire bottle of red wine (once again)
I "stopped drinking" 27 days ago and have already slipped 6 times. I feel SO bad about myself for being weak once again. I am not even sure what triggered it this time - It's not like anything bad happened. Just lots of pressure on my end - husband in another state working, homeschooling my kids, trying to keep a perfect home, dr. appointments (and no insurance), older daughter having medical problems & still not sure what is going on with here etc...
Anyway... thanks for listening. I know today is a new day - I just feel horrible about myself + I have a bad headache & stomach is sick. I deserve that though. Haven't mad it to AA meetings - still trying to get therapy started & then find a psychiartist to help w/ proper diagnosis & meds.