Thank you for your reply. I am hoping that time will heal all wounds and that I can forgive myself as everyone else allready has. For some reason I have trouble doing that for a combination of reason, such as me being a prefectionist and that I feel that I've done nothing wrong. My therepist says I'm just using it as a vehicle to be upset when I'm really just stressed out about all the recent changes in my life. I just hate the thought that I feel like a bum and that I just want to run away and crawl under a rock. Now I can see why alot of guys just take off when things get tough (like her father did). I guess life is not as easy as I thought it would be. I'm hoping that time and meds will truley make me move on and be happy. Aside, from that I truley beleive I need faith in my life as I've started going to church and am leaning towards getting baptisted. I don't know, I'm just trying anything I can to make this work. To many people give up on relationships to easy and I don't want to be one of them...especially when my son is involved. My parents got divorced when I was 7 and that was extremely tough on me.
Well, thanks for listening.