I am exhausted all the time to the point that I have had to miss days of work. I think I have a substantial sleep debt. I have been sleeping for about
7 hours every single night(even weekends) for about
9 months. (Never more than 7 hours) Which I would think would be enough but I think I am the kind of person that needs more but for some reason I can't seem to sleep more. So I figured since I had a long weekend I would sleep as much as I could and last night after sleeping and lying around all weekend trying to pay back some sleep I decided I was going to try to go out. I went to a bar (which I had been looking forward to going to all day) and lasted about
15 minutes I had to leave and go right to bed. So I guess what I am trying to figure out is what to do? Do I sleep more? do I sleep less? My plan is to try and get 9 hours of sleep when I am back to work Monday and get up at the same time every morning, until I pay back all the debt. Any thoughts? I think I am depressed and that is why I am so tired, but I don't feel as though I should be, I have no reason to be depressed. I went to the doctor a while back and he said I was depressed after I filled out a 5 question survey that I'm pretty sure was made up by the zoloft people. He gave me Zoloft and I refused to take because a) I think I am strong enough to beat this without medication b) I read all of the side effects and it didn't seem worth it.
I guess the big thing that I am trying to figure out or see if anyone can relate to is, it is almost like I don't know my own body anymore. That probably doesn't make any sense. But it seems like I don't know when I am hungry any more until I start to feel weak, I don't know when I haven't slept enough until I am about to pass out. I don't get tired (i.e. yawning) I just get to a point where I have to lay down or I am going to pass out.
It is like life is such a struggle. I hope somebody can relate to this I know what I wrote is kind of all over the place, much like my life right now. Any recommendations would be helpful.
Thank you in advance.