Hi all, I'm a newbie
Last year, I hit an all time low and was drinking like a fish. I ended up taking myself to see a shrink who prescribed me Lexapro. After a few months of taking the drug and magically abstaining from alcohol, I was feeling fine and stupidly came off the medication.
I started to consume alcohol once again, at first in moderation and then in excessive amounts and once again hit rock bottom.
Went back to see the shrink who then presribed me a whole cocktail of drugs: Zoloft, Lexapro, Xanax and Alnax. While being on these meds I continued to drink socially but would end up smashed. I would not consider myself to be a big drinker but over the last three months my mental health has been severely affected. I was sexually abused by members of my family as a child and come from a broken home. During my teens and early twenties my 'life' never bothered me that much. Now I am in my late thirties and when I am down the 'past' comes back to haunt me, the drinking starts etc..it's like a vicious circle.
I recently went to see another shrink for a second opinion..am now just taking Lexapro once a day and have been given some sleeping pills, which I will only take if I have difficulty sleeping.
I live in Thailand so access to professionals is limited especially where I am. Anyway, this particular shrink seems genuinely concerened and although his English is not fluent, he would like to start 'talk therapy' which I think is a great idea. The only problem is when I am sober, I find it very hard to talk about my inner thoughts.
I have only one English speaking friend here who does love her drink and when we get together we do like to party...However, I end up getting smashed and even more depressed.
While I appreciate the dangers of mixing alcohol and drugs...I can honestly say that every now and again I do like to drink. I see two choices here, completely knock the booze on the head or strictly limit my intake of booze to a few drinks only.. The big question is..can I do that? I don't know the answer but would hope that I am strong enough to control my intake if and when I do drink.
I have read accounts of people abstaining full stop and others drinking as normal. Personally, I think everyone's different and the effect of alcohol while on Lexapro will differ from person to person, depending on their level of depression, their resistance to alcohol etc.
For me it will be one step at a time...I am fed up of this 'dark cloud' hanging over me and want to enjoy my life without feelings of depression coming back.
Anyway, sorry for rambling on. Your thoughts and feedback most appreciated!