My husband and I have are having a difficult time adjusting to raising our 3yr old twins, one of whom has special needs. We have no quality time just the 2 of us, which we talk about changing, but it never seems to happen due to our busy schedule. In the past, my husband has struggled with drinking and depression, mainly as a result of having a bone marrow transplant 18 yrs ago. about a year ago, he successfully quit drinking all but nonalcoholic beer. However, over the Thanksgiving Holiday when twins and I were out of town for the night, he ended up going out to eat by himself, drinking and driving and let an old friend from his past he ran into talk him into going to a "gentleman's establishment." In my eyes, I view that as borderline cheating and told him so. Also, our finances are very tight and borrowing money from parents is quite common right now. He spent $30 on dinner, which dinner was fine with me as everyone needs downtime, esp. us, but somehow we lost $100 from our account and he can't quite explain it to me. He also took out $330, but after looking at our account online, $320 was redeposited quickly, which when I talked to him about it, he did tell me about. He did admit to me there was no way he should have been driving. He did apologize, cried the whole 9 yards. Since then though, I realize I have been snippy, which he is currently complaining about, but now he just says he's apologized, it's up to me now to figure out how I feel and it is like he is mad at me when I am not the one who did anything. I told him I am working on getting thru this, but I am not there yet. I am so dissappointed and angry with him and never thought I would have to deal with this in my marriage. How do I get over this? I am stuck, sad, mad, and never stop thinking about it during the day. I suffer from anxiety and already take 10mg of Lexapro. Please help!