I can feel the black cloud taking over my mind again. It's like something real like something tangible. I don't know if I can fight it again, if I can keep on fighting. I am so tired, I am exhausted I want to go to sleep and not wake up. Please forgive me for writing again I feel like an idiot but I don't have therapy until Friday. Sometimes I feel so helpless like all I do is take take take I am so unable to help anyone now.