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   Posted 12/13/2007 2:37 AM (GMT -6)   
you guys seem helpful...are life stories aloud?if not i suppose i'll be deleted or something...hmm lets dive right in huh?my mom threw me into group homes at 7years old ...the "staff" treat u like ur retarded there and it was annoying doing basic math in 3rd grade they ended up giving me a iq test thing cus i kept callin them retarded and i was like 145 i think.........one day i was goin thru phonebooks and found someone with the same last name as me...found my grandma...she called my dad who went to court and got custody of me...i got my first gf:)i told my dad sorry we're leavin...lived in a van for a couple months......i missed my gf and couldnt call her cus they might track us down thru her,i finally did one day a year later...she thought i had just left and she had moved on...so i got another gf who was suicidal,her parents hated me she was older than me and i was underage so the cops got involved yay...we were on/off for 2 and a half years,walked 50miles to see her once.lol....at school a guy was mad at me for always beatin him to the answer so he pinched his arm and told the teacher i did it...well with a history of assault it wasnt hard to get another one.3rd charge...i moved in with grandma again and went to her church where there was a girl...her dad had a back problem so i offered to move in and help them out.....i ended up going back out with my first gf ...i was enrolled in colleg and had to make it so i pleaded guilty to make it in time,otherwise they said theyd drag it out for almost a year in court...so felony yay...then she sent her daughter to the school i was going to and cus of the restraining order i couldnt go...i went to church with grandma and they were there,order of protection violation,jail again...got out and moved in with my first gf...got her pregnant had a miscarriage,her parents kicked me out...lived in a homeless shelter for awhile...got her pregnant again(i never learn...)we moved in together...i payed rent,bills,car payments...and when i didnt have a job for 2 months she was gone...i called to see what was goin on and she hung up....so i called back and guess what?unwanted phone calls is harrasment...order for protection...then she told me she was with me and left cus angels told her to...i got roomates to help pay for the place....so i get sued for property damage...live in the homeless shelter again...then i find out the girl i had a baby with had been cheating on me for awhile and the guy she was doin it with had a friend who let me stay at his place in a basemnet with no heat......i found the perfect girl,with great values and everything...her parents got me out of there and i live with them now...they knew i possibly had a kid...(since she had been cheating)and today i get served with child support papers that want me to pay 400 a month when i make 200 a month...my gfs dad is upset to no end that his daughter is with a felon who has a kid and her ma hates me...too much stress on her i think and she said she couldnt give me any answers and needed time to think...i havent slept in awhile as it is...always worried about everything...sister is gettin a divorce and my dads goin to jail...thats the abbreviated version...also i have,asthma,arthritis,severe allergies to cats and dogs(which i live with)herniated disc,insomnia,shattered kneecap,then symptoms i cant afford to get checked out...all i have is my gf and when she wakes up i dont know what her decision will be...how much longer does life go on like this?i feel like...a zombie almost...like the next thing that happens...i will just snap and be a vegetable for life or something...o and i cant find work cus of medical and criminal...i cant get county assistance cus they cant verify bank accounts or work history or something or they have a family emrgency and cant process my case..its always something,everywhere...walls...walls...walls...o and my psychiatrists... ...and another was crazy...i ran into her outside of the office one day and she claimed i was stalking her and wouldnt talk to me again until i agreed 'not to anymore..im not putting up with her paranoia on top of it all.... ...i dont know where my breaking point is or even what it is...but ive never needed anyone but myself and now i feel lost and clawing for anything to hold onto...theres no justice love hope or honesty in this world...is there?

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   Posted 12/13/2007 7:22 AM (GMT -6)   

I am sorry that you have had to endure all of this.

I think it is time to take control of your life. It sounds like all odds have been against you since day one...but that does not mean that you have to follow down that road.

It seems that we tend to follow in others footsteps when that is all we know, but you sound like you want more.

You have had alot of trouble in the past,so is there any programs that your probation officer can get you into?

Also, most of the County Hospitals have a financial program that can help with the doctor bills and meds.
I would try to find one in your area and see if you can get in right away.
Also,if possible you really need to continue with the counseling.

As far as the child support goes...well,I don't mean to sound harsh here but, when there are children involved their well being is all the court sees as it should be.
You can ask for a new hearing so that you can give them your financial information. Did you go to the first hearing? If not then they set they amount for you since you were not there to tell them otherwise.

Good Luck and I hope you find the right road
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   Posted 12/14/2007 7:12 AM (GMT -6)   

Hi there,

I think it is really important that people share their life stories (Within the rules) so that we can understand that other people have similar experiences and also, it helps to give people ideas about how to deal with their current problems. As for there being justice in the world... legal justice seems hard to come by these days. (As in the kind of justice a court hands out) However, I am a big believer in Karma. "What comes around goes around" Everyone gets what they deserve eventually. It might take a long time, but it does. Thats just my personal belief but it works for me.

All the best


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