I'm boggled by the way my mind works. My last hospitalization was very helpful but now I'm just blah. I live day to day life ok, When I get home its great, my wife is very supportive to me. We have a nice house, nice stuff, good families. I'm boggled by the mania part of my conndition. Sometimes through the day I just want to drive till there is no more road. Like I want to start a new life on m own. Isolate from everything. Just do my own thing. But there would be nothing for me to do. Its just so blank. I try to callange my distorted thouhts but get easely distracted by something else. My mind wanders in so many different places. I sometimes feel so crazy, then all of a sudden, I'm fine. It's like right now I just want to be alone. I'm good at blocking negative thoughts. I just can't seem to get the positive thinking going. Sorry for such a boring post but i just needed to get it out. Thanks
Mod-severe depression, anxiety, panic attacks.
Meds currently on, Wellbutrin, Zoloft, Klonopin, Zyprexa, Buspar