Posted 12/25/2007 7:40 PM (GMT -6)
Well it’s that time of year again. I’m guessing that Christmas can be a bad time for a lot of people with depression. I’ve been feeling pretty low of late. What’s worse is that my brother isn’t here, and he has for a long time been my unknowing defender from the rest of my family. I have two friends in crisis at the moment, and I have no idea how to support them and keep myself afloat at the same time. My sister left the country for a year today, which is good and bad. Good because she’s the instigator of a lot of yelling and verbal bashings of me, but bad because that means that some of my parents’ nastiness is sidetracked onto her, and now I’m going to be getting the full blast.
I already have because I didn’t cry at the airport. Which seems ridiculous to me. I can’t help the fact that I was upset when my brother left and not her, since he has shown me nothing but love and protection my whole life, and she none of either.
I’m sorry, I know these don’t even compare to issues that other people here are having at the moment, but it’s all adding up and getting to me at the moment and I just needed to get it out. Yesterday was just a horrible day, and it’s getting worse.
I hope you all had good respective Christmas’, or a good day anyway, if you’re of a different religion.