Rhonda, you have all the support you need here, but in the end you are the only person who can control what you eat. You have a teenaged son, and I know you are concerned about his health as well as your own (because you do want to be there for him for many more years, I'm sure.) Only you can control your diet and you've been around here for a long time and I'm sure you have read all the threads about food, so you do know what you should be eating and more importantly what you should NOT be eating. We cannot give you motivation but we can give you inspiration here, and I'm sure you've read our posts about how we have been able to bring down the blood sugar by diet and exercise. By following the guidelines we've talked about, everyone can get better blood sugar numbers even if they're type 1 or 2, on insulin or other meds, combos or not. Your motivation must come from within. You want to be healthy for many years to come and you want to enjoy your family during those years - this should be your daily motivation. If you put off starting on a better diet or better lifestyle until tomorrow or next week, you are not helping yourself or your son.
Your meds should always be evaluated and re-evaluated when necessary by your doctor. If your case is complicated, then see an endocrinologist if you're not already seeing one. Maybe you are not type 2. Ask more questions of your doctor if you're still having trouble controlling the blood sugar. There has to be a reason, so try to find out.
I don't know how or why you say you hate the food you should eat. I supposed that's a personal preference but for me there's nothing to hate about meat, chicken, fish, shrimp, cheese, eggs, butter, cream, salads, spinach, zucchini, bell peppers, eggplant, mushrooms, asparagus, broccoli, cauliflower, nuts, some berries.... Get a grip on yourself, at least for your son. Start keeping a journal of what you eat and your blood sugar readings. Get outside and walk (if you can do this) and take your son with you. Lift dumbbells. In short, just do it! And you CAN. If I have been able to turn my health around, so can you! Now, get onto the right track, ok?