Your numbers are fine. You are doing well. Blood sugar readings are guidelines not taskmasters. The let us know where we have been so we can decide where we are going. Moderation is the key, and stress alone will drive your sugars up. Keep up your exercise, do some relaxing things like listening to calming music, play with your dog if you have one. (Animals lower blood pressure and stress levels.) Make some homemade soup with lots of veggies and sliced cabbage in place of noodles. It's filling and nutritious and gets those veggies into you!
For myself, I eat real chocolate instead of 'diet' puddings. Real chocolate has cocoa butter, a fat, which slows the carb absorption so it levels out the spike a bit. Real chocolate is actually discouraged as an 'emergency' sugar source when your blood sugar is low because it's so slow to absorb. So for me, it's a small piece of the real thing.
And as for the threat of having to go on meds... Ok, so what? Thank the good Lord above we have the excellent medications we have to help us in the treatment of our disease. My father-in-law didn't have metformin to help move the sugar into his cells, and eventually ended up nearly blind from his diabetes. The meds aren't so bad and even insulin is easier than learning to put on mascara for the first time. This is not a big problem. If you woke up with aching knees every day and the doctor said, "Take an advil before you get out of bed every morning," you wouldn't think a thing of it. You'd just figure it was arthritis. No big panic... Diabetes is like that now. The only people who get into trouble are the ones who ignore their doctors and ignore their bodies and then are totally shocked when everything goes "Pfffftttt!"
You aren't ignoring your physician. You are really trying and if after all your trying you still need meds, that's ok. Whatever it takes to get the numbers into the safety zone... That's the goal. Not whether or not you take meds or insulin. Just good numbers, ok? Be nice to yourself. You're doing the best you can. And there is no pass or fail. Just one day at a time, all things in moderation.
"People are like stained glass windows: They sparkle and shine when the sun's out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is light within."
- Elizabeth Kubler-Ross