Cowardy Lion (a.k.a. Dorothy)-
Well, You know, I had a video EEG last Sept. and the neuro showed me the video and EEG of me having the seizure and I watched myself... I couldn't believe it was me!!! I immediately thought - " so this is what other people see" Boy, oh, Boy. That was a real eye opener. It made me want to sign up for the surgery right then and there.
Since my sister had come to pick me up from the hospital, my husband didn't see the video with me and when I went home and I told him, " why didn't you tell me that's what I looked like when I had a seizure!!!" He said, " don't worry, Honey, it's not that bad." But, to me, it wasn't pretty. I mean, it wasn't ME.
So, yes, I feel that I have cold feet too, Dorothy, but I think when all is said and done I am going to do as the lion, tinman, scarecrow, and Dorothy did... march down to see the Wizard, maybe a little shaky, but I have to do it , especially if I want to get back to Kansas!!!!
My neuro tells me my risk of complication is higher if do nothing. If I Just take the meds and let the natural course of the illness progress. My seizures may become stable...no better, no worse, or they may get worse and everything else will get worse - memory, cognition, coordination, headaches (can that be much worse?). So, I'm projecting myself beyond the surgery, Dorothy. I'll be there with you. You can bet on that.
complex partial seizures since 22
lamictal 200mg 2x/d
zonegran 150mg 3/d