Welcome to HW. As I was reading your post, I was thinking- boy, I know what you mean. I've had seizures for 25 years despite all the meds. After various combinations of 8 medications over the years, I too was wondering if all I had to look forward to was the same routine of worry and despair. I just had a left temporal lobectomy 4 months ago and I've got my fingers crossed that my seizures will finally be under control. So far, so good. I've got to stay on my meds for at least a year, maybe forever, to maintain the control. The consequences, as you mentioned, are my memory and concentration aren't the same. In addition, after the surgery, I now have a persistent headache too. Of course, I'm hoping all the med side effects and headaches get better, but I'm willing to deal with it if there's a chance of having no seizures.
It's absolutely essential to have as much support as possible to cope with this problem. Although my family and friends that don't have epilepsy are loving and caring, they don't truly know what I go through. That's why I get support here.
Like Ranman and MandiAnn said- just work around your "disability", spend as much time loving your little daughter, and I've learned now- there's always hope. Get support. And Believe in Yourself Mollymom. Hugs, Glenda
complex partial seizures since 22
lamictal 200mg 2x/d
zonegran 150mg 3/d