I have been having seizures for around 12 years now, most of the time is like i just pass out and go limp twitching a little, I can sometimes hear people talking around me while it is happening, but cant do anything at all, last night I had another, but this time was really scary, i got a sick feeling in my stomache, while riding home in a car, i said I dont feel right, just as it hit me like a ton of bricks, I was trapped in my head and the world was spinning around me, I could not see or hear or feel touch, I couldnt move, but I was trying hard, screaming out in my head, I just wanted to open my eyes and see something, it felt like I was dying, when I came too, I was very weak and couldnt balance at all to walk or stand, then I threw up and fell asleep, that was at 10pm last night and I just now woke up from sleep at almost 4pm the next day, I am poor and have no insurance, am sick of emergency room turning me always saying I have to pay upfront for a mri or eeg and wont refer me to a neurologist, it was super scary and i thought i was dying, was almost like i was having a panic attack during my seizure. is this normal, most of my seizures are like this, but this last one was a thousand times scarier to me.
i knew I was sitting in a car, but that is it, I couldnt think of my name or anything till I came out of it. was like i was separated from my body but trapped inside of it, I am scared that I wont come out of the next one and will stay trapped like that, the thought makes me tremble in fear, I have been shot and stabbed, but this seizure was the scariest thing i have ever felt. to be conscious and awake while trapped in a void with no body, going crazy trying to make my body do what I wanted it to, I just do not know what to do anymore.