bless your heart!
i have grand mal seizures. they can be quite embarrassing also. although i'm totally out when mine hit, i lose bodily control. and it's really upsetting when you wake up - are confused - dont know where you are - and have wet yourself without knowing. i really understand -
and people can sometimes be so cruel when they don't understand. i've even overheard co-workers making crude jokes about epileptics in my presence - and boy -it can really make me feel bad (whether they know or not) -
i totally agree about getting your meds checked though - sounds like you need to be on something else or a bit stronger to control them.
besides sleeping enough - do you get enough time to de-stress or do the things you really love?
i'm glad you feel that way. that's great!
i also like to tell those and only those who are close to me about my seizure disorder - or people i work closely with, etc.
the only thing i always notice though is people always look at you differently after that - i see it in their eyes as soon as i tell them. you know if it was asthma or something - people wouldn't feel the same. but i think it scares them. so i always let them know what they should or shouldn't do for me if i do have a grand mal - which does help a little. and then theres the ones that if you are feeling the smallest bit unwell - keep asking "are you sure you're ok?" - like you're going to have a seizure then and there.
by the way, i have a friend who last year because her seizures were not regulated by medicine was able to get one of those dogs that are specially trained to help us with seizure disorder. i thought that was sooo cool!
keep up the good studies! i have 2 boys in college, 20 and 21
they sure stay busy!