I have always had trouble trying to explain it because my mind isn't very clear when I am going through these periods. I often hear strange sounds in my head, see odd visions or objects with my eyes & just can't seem to think straight. I have even tried to write down what I am feeling in my daily journal and when I look at it later on what I had written is all mumbo jumbo and makes absolutely no sense.
I just sort of sit/stand there and stare, like I don't know what in the world to do, and all these strange thoughts, images & sometimes sounds will differ (will deepen or change tone from what they really are) come into my mind and most of the time I start crying and sometimes my hands will shake and I start heavy breathing, etc. Oh God, they are horrible to have to go through. This can happen anytime and anywhere with no cause or problem making it to happen. Alot of people seem to ask me, "Well, what did you do to cause it?" I didn't do anything, it just comes. I can be sitting in my room reading or playing with my cat or fixing myself a meal in the kitchen and the feelings just come... I'm not doing anything to cause panic or fear. That really makes me mad when people say that it must be something I am doing that is causing the feelings to come.
I have no clue why it is happening and my neurologist (who I have been seeing for about 3 years now) doesn't have any answers for me.
Hi Carly, This is exactly what happens to me. I also have a "speech arrest". That's when I can hear and be fully aware of what is going on around me but I can't respond. It's like I'm paralyzed.
Some neurologists call this a petit mal seizure and others call it an aura.
You said that you are unemployed ~ is that due to your "seizure condition"?
If so, it is a form of descrimination and violates the Human Rights Code as well as the federal constitution.
Do you think that stress could be a trigger? Everybody reacts differantly to stress. (That's what happened to me, I was an Administration Manager for the Canadian Federal Government for 21 yrs.)
Perhaps the fast pace of your life style is causing stress.
If you are not getting any answers from your neurologist, perhaps you should try to get a refferal to an "Epileptologist"
I don't know if this helps you or if you got anything out of this but I felt that I had to comment.
Hope you get your problem straightened out.
Diagnosed with epilepsy and ulcerative colitis in 1979,
Been on meds ever since.