I looked it up once. I havent found ALOT to read about
it, only some. But, what interests me most is the program. I keep wondering if it would truly help. I mean, theres nothing to lose I dont guess, except it would cause alot of pain, but I think it owuld be worht trying. The only problem is I dont think there are any programs close to me, and also the fact that it would keep me out of school. I honestly wouldnt have a problem with this, I would totally go if I got the chance to. Its probably stupid...its crazy when the pain first starts, you think it will go away tomorrow. Tomorrow the pain is still there...so you think it will take a week or two. But, after that its still there...then you lose hope in it ever going away. But, then I was reading that and it gave a good review of the people whom tried the program. Then, that causes me to wonder if maybe the pain really could be taken away or just lessened, that would be great. However, at the same time I wouldnt get my hopes up, I gave up on that a long time ago...
So, it confuses me alot. Im not sure what to think. It will never go away and I will deal with it forever? Will it always hold me back? Could it go away? Would it help? I have no hope? But should I have hope? Or will that hope continue to be crushed???
I just dont know. Honestly, if I had the chance to do it, I would go in a heart beat... I think I decided that if theres a chance, Im not going to pass anything up, because things are possible, and I just want to have hope in it. But, then, I dont want false hope. Its all so crazy. I didnt want to go to the doc because I didnt think he oculd help me, but now, Im not sure if I should want to go or not. Its just all confusing. I like knowing there could be something out there for me, but at the same time, I wish he hadnt told me and got me all stirred up....
"Healing is an energy phenomenon. Hope is another
word for Healing.
"Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart
no matter how strong you are"
"Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
"Im going to
smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."