Made it to walmart this morning even though my old body complained plenty. I am not nor have I ever been a morning person. I like to take my time
getting ready for the day and with health problems it can take me sometimes 2 hours to get myself together. Didnt do any fun shopping today,just went for household stuff and a few groceries. I hate going there just for the boring stuff but Jay doesnt get paid for a week and I am pretty broke too. I love shopping for my grandkids at walmart. Its one thing Jay and I dont see eye to eye on and I understand that buying too much isnt good for them but most of the things I get are clothes or things we can do together such as art supplies or games we can play. Jay just isnt a great person to shop with women period. He gets easily bored if its not something he wants to look at and I absolutly hate it when I am just looking at something and he says"we dont need that". First off I didnt say I was going to buy it and second dont tell me what I do or dont need. I got enough of that with my ex husband. Today was pretty mellow though.
As soon as I walked in the door from getting off the bus I had to turn right back around and go to the grocery store, 4 stores to be exact,drop off movies and go to the smoke shop and then the 2 grocery stores. I try to get only whats on sale at each store so lots of times I have to go to more then one store and it never fails once I get home and start cooking I always am missing one more thing!! Jay had to go in to work so I got to run errands. So got back from the stores and then walked over to pick up moms dirty laundry and after getting back home yet again I started wash while I cooked Jay dinner and put the groceries away. I finally got something to eat around 7 since most times I dont eat what I am
making Jay and I cant sit down and enjoy a meal unless I have my chores done or in progress. I guess I do have a major problem with just relaxing. There's always one more thing to be done and with as much running around as I do I never have things the way I want them to be.
I get really depressed when my house is a mess,feel so unsettled and the really heavy cleaning has gotten out of hand but I just cant do it anymore it hurts too much not to mention its dangeroous with my balance on a ladder for cleaning walls and ceilings(we smoke and the grime grosses me out). Jay doesnt seem too concerned about any of it either. Its like he could leave a pair of dirty socks on the floor for weeks and never notice. I even have on purpose taken a pop cap or crumpled piece of paper and threw it on the floor and left it there and weeks have gone by and Jay walks right past it or over it and doesnt pick it up. Yet,he tells me when he lived alone that his house was always clean,somehow I dont beleive that lol. He does help more then he was but not near as much as he did before I got so sick. Its like the novelty wore off. But I cant live with the garbage overflowing or an inch of dust on the furniture,for one thing I seem to feel sicker if it does pile up like I am allergic to so many things now like dust and smoke even though I smoke I can't handle having no fresh air at all times in the house.
Tomorrow I meet with my daughter at 10 am. She is coming earlier so she can get home sooner. I already told her that if she wants to grocery shop I am not hauling her stuff back to my moms nor loading up the bus for her. The tuesdays I spend with her and the kids have gotten to be more of a dreaded thing then a happy one and that needs to change with so much running around. If she has that many things to get done then she needs to make more then one trip a week cause its killen me. Well I suppose I should get off this chair and go to bed. Still have lots of swelling in my legs,all the way up past my knee's today!!! and need to put them up way more often. This is not good specialy in my family with a history of phlebitis and blood clots. Gotta go take care everyone