We've been back from our camping holiday for a few days, but I didn't get the chance to check in. We actually came back a day earier than planned, the end part of the week was so wet. For the last 2 days, we were all huddled under the tarp, or crammed in our VERY small trailer. Try keeping a toddler entertained when you can't move without sitting on someone else! :P The beginning of the week was good though. We got a few beach days in, and I got to go on a couple hikes. At night, my legs were spasming, and I would get cramps in my feet every morning, but it was worth it. I was ok if I went in the morning (after my feet loosened up), if I tried to do any walking in the afternoon, I woudl fade out very quickly. Dh and I went for a hike the first day we were there, while we waited for our camp site to clear (we left the kids with my in-laws for the first day). Didn't we do a really stupid thing!! I had looked really quickly at the trail map, and noticed that some trails were up to 5 hours long. We wanted to go for a quick hike while we waited, and just plunged in. This trail had very steep climbs, adn about 20 minutes in, dh was feeling very unwell. He is diabetic, we have only known for a few months, and are still getting used to his limitations. He was having a pretty bad sugar low, we didn't have any sweets with us, not even water. So then I started to panic that we were on a 5 hour trail! I kept it together for him, but I was gettign very worried and trying to figure out if we should go back or keep going. If we went back, we would have had to climb down those steep hills. After about 40 minutes, I was convincing dh to go back, but first I went ahead to check things out. We were at the end of the loop that was taking us out! How stupid are we? This was very dangerous, adn I'm hoping we learned our lesson. From now on I'll be making sure dh has his glucose tablets with him, just like I make sure ds has his epipen.
So I had been feeling really great while we were gone, other than my legs, like I said. Even my face stopped hurting, what a relief that was!!! I really don't think I can take any more of that facial pain. But I'm goign to have to, it started again Sunday. Hopefully it will stay liek this for a bit though, it only hurts off and on, not constant anymore. Sunday my right shoulder also froze from my bursitis, but it was starting to feel better yesterday. My left knee went at the same time. That one I hope actually gets worse; I have my doctor's appointment tomorrow. The last time I saw him for my knee, it had behaved, so he told me to make another apointment when it flared up. Of course with all the times I go now, I'm not making an extra appointment, so this woudl be a good opportunity for him to figure out what is wrong with it. All these years I thought it was patella femoral syndrome, but at the last check up he said no.
I know I'm rambling... but have you ever noticed that everythign is a cycle? We all know about the downwards spiral of overdoing and flares, or being sendentary, hurting more, so moving less and so on... I've had periods like this in my marriage too. Once, when things were getting a little bad, dh and I were moving apart, I decided it was time to work for my marriage. I prayed for his well being, made myself do nice things for him, think of him through the day, talk to him more, etc. The more I did these things, the more the love came back, the easier it was to care for him, and now we are more in love than ever. So spirals can also be a good thing. When I started getting sick, I really neglected my mothering role. Instead of parenting the kids when they had a squabble, whining or a tantrum, I gave in; yelled, threatened and had tantrums of my own. Their noise and whining would send me in a frenzy. I couldn't think clearly and I would get really stressed. No more. Maybe it's because the fog has lifted a bit, or my threshold for moise and chaos has increased, but I can deal with it better. Taking the time to deal with the tantums and fights, they are getting better too and not having so many. I'm getting my good kids back, and I feel good about being a better mom again, so the depression and stress over that is lifting too.
But what can you do about the overdoing cycle? I am feeling pretty good, I have more energy and I don't deep down ache. My hands and feet hurt bad, but I can deal with it with distraction. Same with my face. But if I try to rest, sit at the computer or watch tv for any lenght of time, it all comes back, and then so does the ache in the legs, the need to move them. I can't be on the move all the time! What can I do to keep distracting myslef?
Sorry about such a long post. I guess I missed my new friends adn felt the need to catch up :)
God Bless, I hope you are all doign well today. (((HUGS)))
in the land of Limbo, taking OTC meds only.
Don't know what's wrong, can't fix it, doctors are so sloooow!!!