I am so mad, if I had the energy I would scream! I finally decided to apply for disability, made my appt and asked my dr to fill out a form telling what what going on w/ me. She did and said I had all these problems including depression then said I was a malingerer. Needless to say I did not bring that report into the office. I had to complete an endless report on the computer (w/ my DD's help.) My visit was ok, the man wasn't bad, but the visit to SS was 2 1/2 hrs long. I can't sit that long and the chairs were hard. I had to keep getting up and trying to stretch my back and legs. I have been sick this past wk, today was 1st day I was up to calling. I asked the dr. why she wrote that on the report and she said 'I don't think your prob is FMS so much as depression. Everytime I give you a rx you have a prob w/ it. You don't follow the drs. (Specialists) orders', I asked what she meant. She sent me to 2 drs. 1x each they did exam, sent me for blood test and she never sent me back. There was no follow up. The last dr she sent me to was the ortho, he gave me a series of shots in my knees, sent me to PT for 2 complete sets of therapy. Both of which I completed. I still have a prob w/ my hand/wrist, shoulders, and knees. I need a quad cane to walk outside. She said 'you always have a prob w/ the meds'. If they don't work I can't help that, I have tried what she has asked me to do.
She said I started off w/ 5 complaints, went up to 15 last visit. I didn't have 15 complaints, I hadn't seen her since ortho visit I was telling her what had happened since then, w/ PT and shots. She said 'I don't know what to do for you to make you better'. I told her I didn't expect her to cure me, but help me w/ what is going on. She said 'I think if you are this angry', ( I was very calm, trying to say what I felt and never raised my voice or anything, so that angry thing was weird) 'you should find a new dr.' I said I'm not angry, I am upset. She has never heard me angry, trust me, it isn't pretty. I had problems for yrs that she was never able to connect the dots to FMS, when I did, she didn't believe me at first, after I typed all the symptoms up and gave her the list from the Fibro Advocate, she said I think you have Fibro. She didn't feel I needed anything to sleep or for pain for a long time. I still don't sleep more than 2-3 hrs w/ Soma.
I have to try to find a new dr for my DH and myself. He said if she didn't believe me, then he has no use for her. So I have to try and find a new dr. for the 2 of us. My children go to her also, I will tell them about her attitude, but to leave is their decision. I don't think they will be treated nicely in that office tho. So, if any one has any suggestion for a PCP in the Central Jersey area pls let me know. I know there are a lot of run on sentences in this post so forgive me but I'm not happy at the moment and I guess it shows.
Thank you for letting me vent, at least my heart rate seems to be down a bit now. God bless. Alice.