Hi everyone. I haven't been on in a while, and I apologize. Recently, when I get online, I check my e-mail and that is about it, because with the recently colder weather, typing has become harder for me to do.
Here is what is going on with me. about two weeks or so ago, I was officially diagnosed with Fibromyalgia. Yay for me, right? (sarcasm) Things have been pretty hard. I recently changed anti-depressants, so I am on Cymbalta instead of Zoloft. It seems to be working okay, but I was told by the rheumetologis that I saw that I would need to lower my Trazodone in order to take the higher dosage of Cymbalta that I was told to take. So, instead of 150mg of Trazodone, I am taking 75mg. This has been really hard on me. It is really affecting my sleep, which is affecting the rest of my days. I find it so overwhelming to see my house a mess and not feel like I can clean it. Today, I am going to try to at least get a few chores done so that I don't feel completely useless like I normally do.
Our main car broke down today, and I don't know when we will be able to get the part for it. We have another car, but someone syphoned the gas out of it a while ago, so now we are having a hard time getting it to run again. This is all really really stressing me out. We HAVE to have a vehicle. So many things are overwhelming me right now, and I just wish I could curl up and not get up. I wish that none of these problems were a reality.
I am not really sure what to do about all of this. And I don't know how to help my husband. I can tell he is having a very hard time coping with all of this because he doesn't have a job and he does most of the housework, plus taking care of our one year old child. He is really understanding and sweet, but I can tell that this is all taking a toll on him and I don't know what to do about it. I don't know how to push past the pain and fatigue and do things that I need to be doing.
I just feel so helpless and so useless and so stressed. I feel worn down all the time, and I feel like I am going to collapse all the time. I just don't know what to do. I need some advice. Please. Someone help me.
~MDD, Fibromyalgia, OCD, Anxiety Disorders, IBS, TMJ, Arthritis~
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