I totally understand how you feel. I made a call to an attorney to ask how I could work and sign up for disability. He said that I need to earn far less money than I do right now. By the way I earn less then half of what I use to (I think my husband misses our confy income, as if I don't). I recall the attorney saying, get my earnings down to $600 per month so that I can apply for disability as I continue working. Last week I worked through I migrain because we are a small Doctors office with a small staff. I litterally excused myself to throw up and pray that the imitrex would get me through it. I was angry that I was forced to work through a migraine. Thank goodness the migrain wasn't as bad as it could have been.
I was just about to start a topic of my own, titled... I'm mad at my husband, help me! My husband and I have been married for six years now. We have five teens between us and we are 40 years old. A year ago in October I had to quit my job to figure out if I was going to die. I was having every symptom listed for Fibro and some others that now get blamed on fibro. I made really good money and had been at my job for seven plus years. I made great money and I was having panic attacks, migraines and unexplainable pain that lasted beyond my doctors release. I was diagnosed in December of 07 as having Fibro and Generalized Anxiety. I was back to work on a part-time basis by February, because there was no other option. Currently I'm up to 30 hours a week and my pain continues to increase, my migraines are increasing and my husband says I could never quit. He wants me to file for disability, but will not hear of me quiting to get it. It frustrates me, because I know that if he was hurting as I am, I would not feel as he does. I know that 40 years old is too young to give up, but I feel that all I have to give is used up getting to work, making it through each day and that's it. Everything else in my life is done with what ever I have left over. This includes being happy, spending time with my kids, my relationship with my husband and I have not been able to find time to find an understanding Primary Doctor, I have been told that my anxiety is the main problem (Husband's convinced if I go to a Phsychologist, he/she will solve my issues). I get home and if I am not helping with kids sports, homework, housework or making calls to obtain a good doctor, I'm desparate for sleep.
I wonder how many people work and how old they are. I know that many here are so positive, but I also notice many are able to be at home. I feel very upset that this is my life. When I'm not working. I'm recovering to do it again the next day.
I hope that you receive some help with your topic. Last night I told my husband that I was ready to give the girls to thier father and leave him, because I am so tired of trying to live up to what he and the kids need. I'm tired of hoping that he'll hear my cries for help. Hell, let's sale things, give up stuff and find a way for me to improve my health so that we can all be better off.
I'm so sorry that you are feeling as you do. I truely do understand.
Fibromyalgia (DX'd Dec 07) ~ Generlized Anxiety ~ Migraines ~ IBS ~ Asthma ~ Allergies
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