Do you find that your fog gets worse if there is a lot of noise around? I've always been sensitive to noise, but since fibro it is so much worse. I can usually tolerate some level of noise and chaos, I have to with the kids, but there are days that I just can't tolerate any at all. Those days, just the kids all talking together makes me so on edge, feeling like I am goign to snap, and very anxious. I can't think or ignore it, the noise becomes all I can process, and it seems to amplify.
My fog had been pretty good lately. And I've had a few bouts of the noise sensitivity, but it didn't seem to affect my fog too much. Then last night I was at work, adn all of a sudden I got dizzy. The room spun aroudn a couple times, then the fog set in so thick I could barely function. I could hardly hear the guests at my tables b/c of the background noise in the restaurant. Even when I did hear what they were saying, I could not seem to process it properly. Sometimes I was talking adn I seemed to have lost control of what I was saying. I had no idea what was coming out of my mouth. The staff seemed to be especially rambunctious last night, and very loud. At one point I was at the expo line where 3 different orders were up. I had the chits in front of me, trying to sort them, adn I coudl not make any sense of the orders at all, it was liek I had forgotten how to read. The noise that the staff were making seemed to get louder and louder until that is all I coudl process. I finally broke down in tears, the stress took me over the edge. I was able to pull myslef together to finish my shift, but it was hard. I had to keep goign back to the computer b/c I coudl not remember at what point my tables were at, who ordered what, who had eaten even! It did get better at the end of the night, but I know it was only b/c the restaurant was clearing out and there was less noise.
This morning seemed to be more of the same. I was gettign the older kids ready for school, helping with jackets, giving bags, saying goodbye. They were all talking to me at once, the baby was shrieking, and I just about
lost it again. I coudl not process anything other than noise, I coudln't make sense of anythign. I was supposed to go on a field trip with them. They are going to a nature reserve adn hiking, adn I was goign to bring the baby. Well, she's been sick since yesterday, so I cancelled. It's a good thing too, b/c I don't think I coudl handle it today. Even now, I can hardly wait until dd is sleepign so I can have the house completely quiet! (btw, sorry about
all the typos, writing is harder than usual today too.)
I started trainign on the treadmill yesterday, do you think it sent me into a flare? Is it possible to have a cognitive flare rather than more pain or fatigue?
And dh jsut doesn't get this at all. He is starting to understand that sometimes I can hurt for no reason. He gets that I need to rest now, not to panic if I lay down for 5 minutes. He understands the fatigue when I just can't move anymore. But this seems to be beyond him. He was asking if I had a sugar low, if I was stressing about
being dizzy and it was affecting me, if I was just tired. He kept saying, "what do you mean you coudln't read?" "what do you mean you couldn't understand what they were saying?"
How can I explain this to him? He has even read an article on fibro fog, but it didn't seem to help.
such a long post, I can never seem to keep it short
BTW, does anyone know how the get the colour options back when writing a post? It says on the side that mCode is disabled. This is probably it, but how do I change it?
Thanks for your help, and I wish for you a wonderful day filled with littel blessings.
Waiting for appointment with rheumy (March 2009) to get an official dx. waiting, waiting, waiting....
Taking malic acid/magnesium combo, what a life saver! and amitriptyline