Donna, there are other antidepressants out there. Actually, people with fibro do suffer from depression. I'm one of the few that don't. If the Lexapro is causing this dulling of your senses, that's not good. Another antidepressant may not do that to you. I know people on Zoloft that have had good results and others on Prozac with good results. There are many different antidepressants to choose from so I think, if I were you, I'd want to try something different. It's taking your love of writing from you. You want your meds to help you...not steal your life.
My husband suffered from depression but we didn't know that's what his problem was at first. They didn't talk about depression like they do now. He went to work but was a recluse when he got home. He was put on Prozac and it worked wonders for him!
I do know what you are going through. Back in 1985, we lost my father, my husband's father, and my husband's 42 year old sister in a five month period. Then, in 1997, I lost my husband suddenly and, seventeen days later, my Mom had a massive brainstem stroke. She lived but suffered for 2 1/2 years and I was her caregiver. Once you get through the grieving you will be much better. That's where my faith played a big part.
Try not to become a recluse. That's the easy thing to do but can make your life miserable. See if you can find a more comfortable bra. Some like those sports bras...especially if you aren't greatly endowed. They are supposed to be comfortable. Pick comfortable clothing, too. It's so good to get out and be with other people and friends. I'm going out to lunch with a friend tomorrow. I go on day trips with a travel group and have a wonderful time. I'm always glad to get back home, but I'm also glad I went! So, don't give up on life. There is a lot of enjoyment left for you.
As far as what comes out of your mouth, you need to have a good sense of humor with fibro. I just laugh at myself now. As far as your writing, could your husband or a friend proof-read your writing? They would catch those obvious mistakes. I'm sure the gist of what you are writing about would come through. Those little mistakes are unimportant and can be easily fixed! So, don't let fibro control you and the life you really want to live! There are always ways to work around it and still do the things you love to do.
In the Fibro 101 thread there is a list of stretching exercises that are done sitting down. You could print these out and use these at your computer. Buy a timer and set it for a half and hour. When it goes off, get up and walk for a few minutes...get a drink of water, use the bathroom, and then head back and reset it for another half an hour. Check the clock when you are up and, if it is close to lunch or dinner, make something you enjoy. The computer and what you have written will be there when you get back. You see, with fibro you do need to pace yourself. You can't do what you want to in the same time period you used to. My carpeting needs to be steam cleaned. I steam cleaned the family room today. Tomorrow I need to shop so that's on my agenda. Wednesday I'll steam clean the living room and dining room...see what I mean? I just make a plan for the day and follow it. I don't demand more than my body can handle. You will learn what you can do without becoming too sore.
This is becoming a book but I did want to suggest a lumbar support pillow for your back. I also sit on a memory foam pillow so my backside doesn't hurt, too! I have scoliosis and my lower back can get painful if I don't take care in making my seat comfy.
I think I answered your questions and gave you some ideas. I do hope this helps you. You can live your life and do the things you enjoy doing with fibromyalgia. You need to be your own advocate and use your head when it comes to medications. Remember, you hired your doctor. You are the boss! My doctor wanted me to try Lyrica but I do not want to take anything that makes me drowsy, dizzy, sleepy (sounds like the Seven Dwarves!) etc. I want to be able to get in my car and drive safely. So, I have found ways that help me control my pain and I just move forward. I hope some of this will help you.
I will speak to the administrator about your problems posting on this forum. This should not be happening. Have a great evening!
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