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   Posted 11/18/2008 12:23 PM (GMT -7)   
Well, its that time again, Im not on that much anymore, I read alot, but not posting alot so, I figure its time for an update again!
Ok, Paxil is going good, I suppose! I feel better. WOAH! Did that just come out of my mind?! Yes, I said, BETTER! Thats nice to say.. hmm! Anyways, I suppose its better. Im not as anxious, or worried, or whatever. School is, well, school! lol Elective class, easy. AP Literature, everyone is complaining, but I find that its not that bad! Calculus is, another story! haha, Im not liking it! German, is okay, the words are fun to say, but my teacher isnt so great. Then Im library aide. Which is boring and simple! So, thats my day.
Okay, now for the good part, other than feeling better. I JUST feel better! You guys know me, and how I have been the past year and a half. But, now Im just as outgoing as I used to be when I was younger, before all this! I talk more, and I have come out of my shyness more. I go hang out with friends. Im not as afraid. I go to parties, I meet new people. School isnt such a big bother anymore because I feel like I can get everything done, WITHOUT worrying! I am scheduling things and making time for everything. Its SO much different. AND, Im telling my story more and more. To friends, and some family. AND, I know this is all great so far but theres more(!), I have been single for 4 years now. But, Im actually starting to have crushes again. Im so afraid though because...well I dont know.
But, isnt it great that my biggest worry is who I have a crush on! Sounds just like a "normal" teenager, right?! But, I still hate the Fibro thing. I was riding dirtbikes and I didnt have my riding boots on, I was jumping and a few times I landed wrong and come down on my ankle, several times I was SURE I hurt it bad, one time I was certain I broke it. But, I didnt, it was strange how it happened. I didnt tell teh other guys, I shook it off and kept going. I have been wearing my walking boot for over a week in hopes that my ankle heals. I think I just hurt the ligaments in the front of my ankle/foot. I may end up going to the doctor, I dont know yet. But, anyways, the Fibro thing is REALLY bothering me because I have lost so much of my muscle and cant get it back because doing stuff hurts. So, what do I do???
So, if you read that whole thing, praise you! haha tongue   Thanks for everything!
Lyrica and Paxil (both working quite well might I add!)
   "Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are"
    "Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
    "Im going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."

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   Posted 11/18/2008 1:08 PM (GMT -7)   
Tennis, you have just made my day, my week, my month, and my year!  I have been praying that you would get your life back and you did!  You worked very hard to reach this point and you listened.  I'm so happy for  you and proud of you, too!  This is just the greatest news!  yeah
Crushes...as in plural???  smhair    You sound like me when I was a teenager!  I was dating three guys at the same time and none of them knew about the other ones.  I had to remember who I told what to, but that was before the fog rolled in!  shakehead   You're single, enjoying life, so just continue to have a great time.  This time only comes once in a lifetime.
If you are not in a lot of pain, try starting out with stretching to loosen the muscles and then work in to more strength training.  Get some 5# dumbbells and do the arm curls, etc.  You might try ankle weights to see if that will help strengthen your ankle and leg muscles.  You don't want to do too much and end up in a flare, so just take it easy.  Because you are more active, you are using your muscles more and that will help get your strength back.
I was hospitalized once for five weeks.  By the time I got home, I couldn't lift more that a couple of plates at a time into the cupboard.  When I tried putting five plates in, my arms were shaking and I really couldn't do it.  But, I hadn't used those muscles in five weeks.  Now I have that strength back.  I'm not nearly as strong as I was before fibro but I'm strong enough to do what I need in life.  So, you will get your strength back.  You are young and you will be surprised how it will return when you use the muscles regularly.
Thanks so much for sharing your fabulous news.  I'm grinning from ear to ear.  smilewinkgrin
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   Posted 11/18/2008 2:43 PM (GMT -7)   

Tennis, what a wonderful update! You sound like you are enjoying your life, not so great teachers and all. Things seem to be coming together for you and you're making the most of it. Good for you. Take a careful look around, you may find that there are a few ppl who have a crush on you, too. Hopefully, some of those crushes overlap! Hope each day gets better and better for you.

I'm so glad you posted. We have some other young ppl here and hopefully, your update will inspire them, give them a lift that things can get better. Actually, we all need that boost at times. May tomorrow be even better!

God bless.  Alice.

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   Posted 11/18/2008 3:01 PM (GMT -7)   

I am so happy for you!!!

It sounds like things are really going well. And I hope that this continues for you for a long long time. You have been working so hard for so long now, I am glad that you didn't give up.

Way to go girlfriend!!!

Luv and hugs, Karen
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   Posted Yesterday 8:51 AM (GMT -7)   
Christi it is so nice to hear from you and even better that your doing so well. I take it Paxil has given you your life back. You sound like a normal teen taking chances you shouldn't with the dirt bikes. I hope you can continue living as normal as you can with this DD.
Are you still on lyrica???
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   Posted Yesterday 12:09 PM (GMT -7)   
Well, Sherrine, Im glad I made your day and all the other things I made! haha Yes, crush(es)! As in plural. Im getting over one now, but I knew it I couldnt have the person I liked so...I was okay with that! But, now theres a person who really likes me and has for a long time and Im trying to get used to the fact that its OKAY for me to get out there and like someone and give them a chance. So, Im trying to give this person a chance! Hopefully, it will be okay. I dont look for them to be my other half necessarily, but thats okay and we'll see what happens! =]

I try to exercise some. I hate that I cant lift things and stuff. For example, my dirtbike is really big, its so perfect for me though! I love it. btw, it belongs to my friend but still... anyways, when we are riding and I lay the bike down(it falls over on its side! lol) I have to be able to catch it and hold it up with my arms, which I cant do....so I have to let it fall to the ground... I just CANT hold it. I have a few times, but it KILLS my arms and back..I just cant. I miss being the really strong girl that can test the guys strength! lol I miss being the FASTEST runner...(I used ot be the fastest over everyone, I loved to race and prove my speed!)

So, anyways, school isnt so bad. Its not stressing me out much anymore, which is great. I know its been, well I was going to saying forever since I have said that to you guys, but then I realized that I have NEVER told you guys that! haha I feel like Im having to get used to that. Because I start to get stressed or overwhelmed, but then its like this HUGE wall blocks those feelings from traveling thru my brain....therefore I just cant feel that way! haha I like it. But its taking ALOT ALOT of getting used to because Im constantly comparing now to the last year. And I shouldnt do that. Im trying to just forget about it. Sometimes I start to get the depressed feelings, but I think thats the "normal" kind that does actually go away.

Ah! I have always been crazy on dirtbikes regardless! hahaha Yes, I am still taking Lyrica. Its a year in about 2 weeks. I suppose it is going okay. I really dont think about it so much. Its just part of my routine when I wake up, nothing more than that!

As for being an inspiration, thats what I hope to do with all that I have been through. I want to tell my story and get it out so that it can, hopefully, benefit others. I really just want other people to know that its okay to fele one way, and that there is hope and help for them to feel better in the future. Also, that it DOES take a while. It really doesnt happen overnight, but it DOES happen. My parents still dont know all that has happened to me. Im not yet strong enough to tell them, I am but, Im afraid of there reaction. But, Im not afraid to tell others. I want other people who feel/felt like I did to know that they arent alone and that it gets better. There are resources out there. Im not really sure how to explain how I feel now. Looking back, its just SO different from how I "did" feel. As long as that doesnt happen again, Im okay with it! But lifes all about the ups and downs, and it can always be worse than it is.

Thanks for everything. Thanks for letting me become so close to you guys, and I really do consider you all family to me! You guys have helped me get through so much thats its....amazing to me! =]
Lyrica and Paxil (both working quite well might I add!)
   "Cracks in the concrete are just reminders that you fall apart no matter how strong you are"
    "Sometimes it is best to forget what you feel and remember what you deserve"
    "Im going to smile like nothing is wrong, talk like everything is perfect, act like its all a dream, and pretend its not hurting me."

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