Well, I'm 58 and I haven't been able to stop obsessing yet! Even though intellectually I can say to myself "Now Cathy, you know that you seem to magnify things in your brain, and you know that nothing ever turns out to be anything "bad", and this will pass", it still freaks me out........which always seems to start a pretty drastic downward spiral.
I was doing great on Zoloft, but it gave me horrendous diarrhea and I believe its causing me alot of irregular heartbeats. So I began weaning off of it. Now I'm freaking out again. For example, yesterday was a really good day for me, until last evening when I went out to close up the chicken coop. I started feeling that all the nerves in my body would go "AAAAHHHHH!!" at the same time.........like a mild electrical shock. just for a split second. I know this is no doubt related to coming down on the Zoloft and that it will pass, but it has sent me on that downward spiral of panic. I'm on a beta blocker, which helps to limit that panic, but doesn't get rid of it.
I'm just so darned tired of being me!
I know alot of you have tons of physical problems. But my biggest fibro problem seems to be my reaction to those sensations. Maybe I'm just a control freak and we all know how much control we've lost with this illness. But I think I could deal with my various physical problems, if my mind just didn't freak out from them. Does that make any sense?
I was going to stay off the zoloft long enough to figure out if all my irregular heartbeats were from that. Then I was going to start Prozac. But I'm thinking I better make the switch soon. I just don't want to live with all these hard thumps in my chest all day.
I seem to get into "thinking circles" when I don't have a med to keep me from doing it.
Sorry for the rambling.