I love my cat without a doubt but I sure do miss having a dog also. Before I moved to this lil town I was married before and I had an austrailan shepard and let me tell you that dog was my best friend for 8 years. He was very protective of my home and property and always made the rounds each night before he could go to sleep. After things got bad in my marriage Bear was my protector many times. My ex had a very bad temper fueled by his bottles of Jack Daniels and things got very violent in the last year or so. Bear would stand between me and the ex and that wonderful animal took some hard blows instead of me during these fights. But no matter how much pain he would endure for me he always stood his ground growling and snapping his jaws and I know he got in some pretty good hits himself.
Unfortunately I had to give Bear up when I moved here. The landlord said no dogs and I thought my heart would break giving him up. I found a aussie rescue site online and found Bear a nice family to live with on a huge piece of property on an island. The lady was very understanding when she came to take Bear. I sat out on my porch with him with my head buried in his soft fur and just could not stop sobbing. Bear seemed to understand what was happening and he cried too but when the lady leashed him to lead him away he didnt fight her and just stared out the window of the car like why are you doing this to me mom? This lady was so kind that she took the ferry over several times over the years to let me visit with Bear. She even called a few times and let me "talk" to him on the phone and she said he would perk his ears up and whine. The few visits that we had and there could have been more but I felt like I was confusing Bear and only hurting him with these visits.
The last vist I had with Bear the years were showing on him. His fur had mostly turned to gray(he was 14 on our last visit) and he had arthritis in his joints which made it hard for him to walk and all the energy I had enjoyed with him over the years was now gone with age and pain. Bear still came to me when I called and let me cuddle him but after about 30 minutes he became nervous and was going back and forth between me and Stephanie,wanting to go home but not wanting to leave me either. I finally told her to take him home and that he was not my dog anymore and he knew it which was sad but also good because he had fallen in love with his new family. I told the lady that this would be our last visit,that I wanted Bear to live what was left of his life in peace plus I couldnt handle seeing him like that. This gal couldnt seem to understand how I was feeling about all of this and kept pushing to bring Bear out again. I hope I didnt come off as cold but it was best for me and Bear to say our finale goodbyes. At least I knew that he went to a good home and even got to spend time with a little boy so I am sure many hours of playing frisbee and playing in the water nearby.
But anyways it is nice having a cat and I always have had one but I still do miss having a dog and now the landlord is allowing a small dog but I am reluctant to get one as my cat is so territorial and when I first got him I already had another cat(Tabitha has since passed away) and he was always fighting with her and omggggggggg peeing all over the house to mark his territory. Luckily the peeing stopped as soon as the other kitty died so I kept Zilla(I was so close to getting rid of him) and I know that if I brought another animal into the house that he would probably start his bad behavior again. So if something happened to Zilla or when he gets older and dies maybe another dog. What a wonderful gift from God to give us these beautiful animals as companions.
Mom of one gramma to 4 lover to One
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