My husband and I talked last night, and things are doing better now. The little baby slept like an angel last night, thank the Lord. I guess I kind of beat up my husband in my sleep last night, but I was having a weird dream, and with my medication, I don't know what I am doing in my sleep. Poor guy. I suppose I really shouldn't complain so much. He has been very wonderful our whole relationship. He has been very supportive. It's kind of been one illness after another with me for years now, and so when we first got together, I was having problems. But he has always taken care of me. Even when we were just friends. When we first met, I started having blackouts. They did all kinds of tests on me, but we never found the reason. But, he barely knew me, and he would drive me places I needed to go because he didn't want me blacking out at the wheel.
I just feel like I have been hit with everything. I found out Thursday that my aunt (my mom's sister) was diagnosed with Fibro 20 years ago. She is doing better because she like almost completely redid her lifestyle. I suppose I need to look at things in my life and see what I can change to make things better. I think a lot of this right now is that I am so stressed by having this illness, and there are so many stressors in my life that I just can't handle dealing with it. Stress makes everything so much worse. I wish I could take a little vacation, where I didn't have anything stressful around me. And I could just recoup for a little while. Then maybe I could look at all the stressors in my life in a different light.
I really appreciate the fact that you are all here for me. It means so much to me. I am so thankful to have people to turn to when I just need to vent, or when I need advice. So, thank you all so much. You are all like my family.
Seeker: I am already on a lot of medications. My doctor says that it is a shame that someone my age has to be on so many meds. I looked at him and said, "Hey, I don't care how many meds I have to take as long as they help."
Along with the Fibro, I have IBS, Major Depressive Disorder, Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, anxiety issues, and a few other things that are illuding me at the time.
Anyways. I won't keep you all. Thanks again.
~MDD, Fibromyalgia, OCD, Anxiety Disorders, IBS, TMJ, Arthritis~
May your heart be filled with love and joy.
May your mind be clear and true.
May your smiles be many,
And may your tears be few.
May God wrap you in His arms
Especially when you're feeling blue.