The holidays have always been a big thing for me,a time to pamper my family and cook up a storm with all sorts of goodies and I used to be able to do all the food prep and baking on my own.............well not anymore. I was a bit bummed that my daughter and grandkids were not going to be with us for Thanksgiving but decided a nice mellow holiday could be good too. Jayson and I had already prepped and cooked the veges we would need for the turkey the night before. I managed to get 4 pies baked with no problems and the kitchen was all cleaned and ready to go for Thanksgiving morning.
I woke up yesterday after a bad night of pain and restlesness and immediatly knew it was going to be a bad morning. I felt sick from not taking my meds all night in the hopes of having a few pills extra for during the day when things would be busy. Had to do my usual routine with the suppositories and was upstairs waiting for meds to kick in and to go potty. Jayson had been up hours before me like he usually is and he called upstairs that the veges were warmed and the huge turkey was out and rinsed and dried and he had even cut up all the giblets we had cooked the night before. When I finally made it downstairs I was all hunched over in pain and coughing from a cold I picked up earlier in the week and the cold of the morning had seeped into my muscles contracting them into tight bunches. Even though I had socks on the cold from the kitchen floor was making my anckles ache terribly. Jayson did pretty much everything with me mostly mixing up the stuffing and then stuffing and trussing the bird.
I was crying and Jay asked me what was the matter and I told him I felt sad that I had gotten to this physical state and felt totally inadaquete in doing even the simplist of preperations for a holiday meal. Jay stood there rubbing my back and telling me it was going to be ok and then as soon as the turkey was in the oven he had me go sit down and he brought me a hot cup of coffee(that he had made for me) and told me to just relax and watch the parade on tv. After awhile Jay said why dont you go upstairs and take a hot bath,he said he would baste the turkey and that eveything was under control. I did take the bath and it did help to calm me and make my muscles feel better. When I got out of the tub I went in to get dressed and Jay had layed out a clean pair of drawstring pj bottoms and a warm top,something he knew I would normally wear when things were bad for me pain wise. So I get dressed and go downstairs and Jay had washed all the breakfast dishes and cleaned up the counters from fixing the turkey and had another cup of coffee waiting for me.
Jayson has always helped me some over the years,the first man by the way that had ever helped me in the kitchen but he went over and above all he had ever done. He said he just wanted to have a nice thanksgiving and for me to be as pain free as possible. This man had to have been paying attention over the years because he got the veges cut at just the right size and had the melting butter and broth all set for basting and anything he wasnt sure of he just asked me whats next? grrrrrrrrr I hate it when the font changes for no reason part way through a post. Anyways, my mom was supposed to walk over for dinner and I has not been able to get her on the phone all day. She did call and leave a message saying she was just getting in the shower but would be done in 30 minutes and this was at 1pm. The turkey was done and I was finishing up the potatoes,rolls and yams and by now it was 2:30 and I still hadnt heard from her. I told Jay to just have him eat as he had been going crazy all day smelling that turkey,I mean this man really loves turkey lol. But he said he would just wait. I finally got my mom on the phone at 3 pm and she said she just had to get dressed sighhhhhhhhhhhhh she is notorious for being late to eveything and always holding ppl up and making them late too.
I told Jay I was just going to go over there and walk her back(she lives right next door in a senior building)but I told him I was going to fix his food first and that he had waited long enough. He goes "but I wanted us to eat together" I knew he was starving at this point so he didnt object too much when I fixed him a plate. I called my mom and asked her if she just wanted me to bring her some food and she was like"but I thought you wanted me to come over but if you dont want me there then I will do whatever you want" I figured that with her dragging her feet so much maybe thats what she wanted but could tell on the phone she really did want to be here so I put on my coat and walked over there. My God she still wasnt even dressed! and it was now aprouching 4pm. So I prodded her to hurry up and we finally got to my house and I got her fed or should I say over fed lol she had the flu early in the week so hadnt been eating much but she chowed down and said she had over ate lol then I walked her back home after packing up tons of leftovers for her and then walked over to Subway where Jay was already at doing prep work for his employees for the next day. Even with all of Jays help I was still so whiped out last night and I am thinking omg how am I gonna get through x-mas and making a huge spread for all of my family and tomorrow I go out to my daughters to make a complete second thanksgiving for her and the kids not to mention doing her hair while I am there. I dont know if I can handle having my arms up to frost her hair. So ya this thanksgiving was a big wake up call for me as far as fibro goes and it just made me feel sad and beaten down.
Mom of one gramma to 4 lover to One
Fibromyalgia,IBS,Stroke x2,endometriosis,Diabetes type 2,neuropathic pain,nerve damage due to tailbone removel,nerve damage due to fractured back,deppresion,high blood pressure,severe nausea,atrophy,chronic pain,nerve damage due to botched bladder surgery,torn hip joint,hypoglycymic
Norco(double strength vicodin) 80 to 100 mg @ day
Ms Contin(morphine) 45 mg @ day,Lyrica 600mg @ day